In a daze.

Today was a bittersweet day for me..
i had fun in the morning when i went to USJ12 ..
at Follow Me's company building.. it was fun..
teaching them.. i had to teach them this China Disco song..
called Mei Fei Se Wu. or smth like tht..
and yeah.. nvr saw myself choreo-ing to these kinda dances..
i realized how much different dance styles i have choreo..this year..
styles i never thought i'd ever do. =P
good. I'm exposing myself to more dance styles. :D
taught them the rest of thriller. teach finish edy. =)
last session with them on thursday..

anyways we went for lunch.. the ppl tht danced..
we had like two tables.. haha.. i sat between two of the..
handsome and pretty boys in tht group. :P
and they were so sweet and niceeeeeeeee! =)
Every single time a new dish arrives, they'd serve me food.. =)
and take food for me.. =) i didn't have to stand up once ..
to take food. hehe. =P lalalala~ Feels Niceeee okaaay! hahaha..
then i thought to myself.. Wow wow.. *raise eyebrows and nods head*..
Gentlemens still exist in this world. =P
Seriously! hahaha... ^^ and when my tea ran out..
they're just so observant.. =) hehe. :P

BOYS.! Learn Har! xD hahaha..
we girls need more people like them! =P

haha. so yeah. it was really a nice lunch. :D
then continued teaching them a while and i went to church..
coz i didn't want to travel up and down so much..
tho it was kinda early when i reached church but it was alright..
Coz AFC is at 8pm.. =).. so yeah..
i managed to finish half of my first solo for the showcase..
haven even done my second solo yet. T_T stresss! been just too busy. =(
so yes, i did have something to do while waiting for time to pass.

anyways it was just a real tiring day for me..
and i was kinda down and emo..coz of smth..
but after AFC was abit better larh..
i was kinda hard on training them today..
i was really tired but when dancing.. there aint no such word. :D
ALL OUT BABEH! So yes. today.. my training was more ..
tiring than usual. i trained them hard. and perfected even the slightest..
difference. =P but i love trainings like these more. =)
dunno bout them.

anyways, its 1am and i still havent taken my shower..
feel so exhausted.. T_T.. summore shifting tmr..
got prac for showcase then shifting in the evening..
Busy busy bussaaay...! k ler. i having headache.. =(
and.. body aches! Off i go!

TWIN! i'm really still happy on how.. we both can feel wht each other is feeling without having to even tell.. that explains everything. And yes! we're just too close. =) and i appreciate and treasure that so much! dont ever want tht to disappear. Dont ever want YOU to disappear. Love you to bits and pieces and whtever it is, i'm here always. =) u noe tht very well and so do i. :) Sleep well my twin! I so love you. =)

You conviniently forgot and didn't even apologize.
Dunno how to face or talk to you now. =.=

Dunno wht to say even. =.=...............

sighs, guess its cause i'm mad at you.

for doing wht u did to me.. How could you.. :(
Dun feel like talking to you for a while now... =(

Its times like these when I really Need You around.. :(

Super Sweet.!

Grow Old With You. =]

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice,
growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you.. ♥

Awwwwwwwwwww. =P
xoxo

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But after listening back to Smile by uncle kracker..
I still love that song more than any of the other songs.. =)

Ohh.. You make me Smile..♥

Love Music.!

Love my new blog songs.. All so sweeeeeeeeet. =)

You Got Me =)

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes

I cant pretend though i try to hide

I like you

I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat

I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe

You got me yeah

You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet

And that crooked smile of yours it knocks me off my feet

Oh I just cant get enough

How much do i need to fill me up.

It feels so good it must be love

Its everything that i've been dreaming of.

I give up. i give in. i let go. lets begin.

Cuz no matter what i do

Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I cant imagine what it'd be like

Livin each day in this life

Without you.(Ohh)Without you.

One look from you i know you understand

This mess we're in you know is just so out of hand.

Oh I just cant get enough
How much do i need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
Its everything that i've been dreaming of.
I give up. i give in. i let go. lets begin.
Cuz no matter what i do
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I hope we always feel this way

And in my heart I know that you'll always stay

Oh I just cant get enough
How much do i need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
Its everything that i've been dreaming of.
I give up. i give in. i let go. lets begin.
Cuz no matter what i do
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

You got me

You got me

Oh WowYou got me

You got me

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Haven't Met You Yet! =)

I'm not surprised, Not everything lasts,
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in,I talk myself out,
I get all worked up,Then I let myself down,

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses,
I thought I thought of every possibility,

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get~ mmm.......
I just haven't met you yet.

Mmmmm ....

I might have to wait,I’ll never give up,
I guess it's half timin', and the other half's luck,
Wherever you are,Whenever it's right,
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazin',
And baby your love is gonna change me,
And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm....

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out,
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get, mmmm....

I just haven't met you yet.

They say all’s fairin love and war
But I won’t need to fight it,we'll get it right an',we'll be united

and I know that we can be so amazin',
And bein' in your life is gonna change me,
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmmmm

And someday I know it'll all turn out,And I'll work to work it out,
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get.

Oh, you know it'll all turn out,
and you'll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get, yeah
I just haven't met you yet.

I just haven't met you yet,Oh, promise you kid,
To give so much more than I get.
I said love love love love love love love.....
I just haven't met you yet
Love love love .....So doy day ay ay ay, ay ay yeah
I just haven't met you yet!

=) ♥

I saw a FULL rainbow~! =)

Yesterday i went to another company in USJ 12 to teach dance.
"FOLLOW ME" company. love their place!
its so big! hahaha.. anyways.. i taught them the Thriller dance!
By michael jackson! it was a very short notice thing..
they called me on monday and i had to teach them on Wednesday..
so i studied and learn the dance on tuesday ..
and practised till 11pm..! O.O learning the dance is NOT easy! it looks so easy but when ur doing it u realize how many steps u have to rmb. and all also weird weird one. hahahaha.. =P but its fun. its like.. a legendary dance! xD then yeah..

taught them! first there were 10..
suddenly more and more people started to join..
reached there around 3pm..and taught till around..
5.30pm? yeah.. then reached home around 7 plus..
people there are really friendly.. =)
haha had fun.. AND OH YEAH! i saw a FULL rainbow!
on the way back! it was so BEAUTIFUL AND PRETTY! =)
I LOVE RAINBOWS! ^_^
its been long since i've saw one..
i still rmb the last time i saw one was last year..
on a wednesday when i was walking to school..
i cant rmb the date.. but i rmb it was a wednesday! =)

And yes, Friends.. i'd be shifting house..
This Saturday.. i'll still be in my area..
but then its another section of this are..
Going to be shifting to the new housing area..
near NOVA 2 apartments.. on the right side..
yep.. the new houses there..
I think its called Jalan PRIMA IMPIAN..
so yeah its a bigger hse.. and looks nicer too.. =)

So yeah after dinner i had to start packing..
packing my things .. spm books for benroy and all.. T_T
i packed 4 boxes already.. but i'm merely halfway!
i realize how many things i have.. =( like gazillionnn much! haha..
so yeah packed and finally stopped at 1.40am..
coz i felt like i was falling sick.. coz i havent been resting well..
and been teaching dance the whole week..
my voice is .. so.. drying out.. hope i dun fall sick!
coz on Sunday i'd be going to Kampar to go to a waterfall!
wooohoooooooo~! A HOLIDAY! like finally! =P
but its just for two days .. but well.. better than nothing right? =)
Plus! i've never been to a waterfall before.. =P blehs.. haha..

so yeah.. yesterday was a real tiring day for me..

TODAY!
went to dad's company to teach..
and i am so PROUD of them! they have improved so much!
its like watching ur children grow up kind of feeling. HAHA!
seriously.. I feel like a satisfied teacher. =P
tho they're nt perfect.. YET. but still! they have improved so much.. =)
so yes! i was just smilling all the way.. =) i had alot of fun! ^^
and yes.. now.. i'd have to continue my packing..!
times running out and i'd be so busy tmr.. out whole day..
teaching at FOLLOW ME then going to church to teach AFC.

MY JB-IANS!
i think i'll be going down to JB on the 7th till chinese new year!
I think.. haahahaha.. should be larh.. if nth changes.. =)
CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU GUYS!!!
xoxo.

Urgh.

yesterday was such a chaotic day for me..
Zzz.. first i was so happy..
then i was so angry..
and then at night i was mad and sad..
i was smaaad. =.=......

really larh. yesterday sucked. ish.
i was so so angry.. with someone who really pissed me off so badly.
i guess the reason why i was so pissed was coz..
i felt so disrespected.. and ignored.. and hurt..
with YOUR words and actions!

but whtever tht lar. Zzz.

then at night tht stupid issue that is STILL going on..
came back to visit me again. weeeeeeeee~!
how NICE. :D

and finally i couldn't take it anymore..
and after such a long time..
i finally broke down and cried. =.=...

i opened my blog.. and the "Smile" song by Uncle Kracker played..
and tears just started flooding my eyes..
and eventually flowed down like a river.. =.=..

but now.. it sucks to emo..
last time when i emo i could stay up till 6am in the morning..
calming myself down with music and wht not..
but now.. i cant.. i'm forced to sleep because its dangerous to be awake when everyone else has gone to bed. because parents are scared that the robbers come back and i'm there alone.. which could've happen on tht day but i so happen went to slp early. =.=.. so yeah..

i cant slp.. when i'm emo.. so now..
i just lie on my bed and stare at the ceiling..
right..
now i sound like some lifeless emo Kid. =.=!

ANYWAY.. january has been........BITTERsweet.
yup. more bitter than sweet. but still..there are sweet memories in january.
ahh. i just came back from my fourth session and i finally finished teaching my choreography. now all that is left is to shape them up.. i got a call yday from another company.. so i'd be teaching them a dance to the song THRILLER for their company dinner or smth.. but yes.. i'm teaching tmr and i stll havent learn or choreo anything.. =/.. soon soon.. after this..

and my breathing pain came back.. =.=..
now every breath i take.. my spinal part..
near the backbone there hurts like.. T_T..
got this sharp pain every breath i take..
this problem comes and go.. dun even noe why..
sometimes its so pain i'm scared to breathe. =.=
but thts just dumb. lol.. ahh.. hope it goes away soon..

i'm so tired. i'm exhausteeed.
while eating lunch just nw.. and in the car.. and when walking..
my whole world could spin like just for a few seconds.
i was like whoaaaaaa!

so yeah i guess its maybe coz i lack slp or smth..
Anyways.. imma go get a nap nw..
and i just wanna thank everyone for your concern..
for your calls and sms and prayers..
and just for caring..

tho i know i didnt want to talk abt anything to anyone..
but please noe that i do appreciate all your concerns..
and care.. and love.. and i Thank God for all of you.
LOVE.! xoxo

YOU FREAKING CROSSED THE LINE.

every single time i have a good time..
everytime i come home sure smth happens that just spoils EVERYTHING.
wht is wrong wit letting me have a good day..

WTH IS WRONG WITH THAT.

i had such a goodtime with Kim just nw..
and she fetched me home.
then hung out with Marilyn..

wth is your problem?
SO ADDICTED FOR WHT?!
CAN DIE IF DONT WATCH MEH?!
YOU ALREADY WATCH FREAKING LONG HOURS LORH!
SOMEMORE GOT EXAMS. DONT KNOW HOW TO SET YOUR PRIORITIES RIGHT.
PPL HAVE SOMETHING URGENT TO DO ALSO DONT WANT TO GIVE IN. WTH IS YOUR PROBLEM NOW. YOU FREAKING CROSSED THE LINE JUST NOW LORH. I WAS FREAKING PATIENT WITH YOU BUT YOU WERE NTH BUT AN IGNORANT FOOL! YOU SOMEMORE DARE SAY "ITS YOUR PROBLEM LA!" YOU REALLY WANT IT TO BE THAT WAY? YOUR PROBLEM IS YOUR PROBLEM AND MY PROBLEM IS MY PROBLEM? YOU REALLY WANT THAT? SO HOW NOW? FAMILY NO MORE LORH? IS IT? SOMEMORE WANT TO ADD ON TO THE FIRE AFTER THAT.

YOU WANT THAT SO MUCH?

SO BE IT.
LET THE FLAMES BEGIN.

Bussaaaaay~!

whoa. @_@
i've been so busy i had hardly anytime to do anything else..
but i did manage to go gai gai on wed! hehe..

on wednesday went to OU with Boon Sin in the morning! =)
hahaha.. i taught Him how to play pool!
was his first time playing! O.O
but he did well.. =) he's a fast learner. haha..
All met Thomaz at the pool place.. =P
he's also one of my best cheong k buddy man! =P

then at 4pm plus plus..
Boo Chong came and we hung out!
we saw OLD DOGS. omgggggggg.. super funny weih!
super worth watching =)
Saw janning and joshua when we were just abt to go in..
xD seriously. go watch OLD DOGS.
its just sooo sooo funny! haha..
so yeah was there till 9plus..
so i spent about.. 10 hours plus in OU tht day..
Crazie? i think so too. =P

Thursday..
went to teach the second part of my choreography..
"i know you want me" & "Single Ladies"
boy oh boy.. was tht a tiring day..
i nvr thought teaching sexy dance would be THAT tiring.. =/
i woke up the next day with backaches and shoulder aches and all..
coz it was kinda hard teaching them this part..
teaching them how to moveeeee and shakeeee..
and how to train their Sexaaay! haha..

then Dad dropped me and BB at church around 4pm..
and we stoned there till...........7pm plus. T_T
coz we were gonna go out and hav our last meal with the aussies..
coz they gonna leave on Friday, which was the 22nd.
it was fun.. =) hanging out with them again..
after so long! haha.. got to noe Jordan more this time round..
coz he sat beside me during dinner.. =)
and he's one playful fella i tell u.. hahahaa..
its so hard to eat sitting beside him!! xD..
so yep.. went back about 12am like tht..
hwah. i was so.. zonked out..
But i really had alot of fun.. =)

On Friday, taught the third part of my dance..
i thought i could finish this part in tht day itself..
guess i thought wrong. rawr.
so yeah.. need another day more to finish the choreography..
and then its perfecting every move.
i dunno why but everyone was so tired on tht day..
everyone including me.. lol... =/
after dance dad dropped me off at church.. agaain..
around 4pm.. coz i wanted to pass some souveneirs..
to my aussie friends before they left..
so ended up spending the day with them.. =)
Jamie ,Steven ,Lauren and i went to amcorp a while.. =D
just hung out and walked around.. =)
went for dinner with them! hahaha and i thought thursday was our last meal together. =P yup yup! had alot of fun.. like always.. =) their such fun ppl to be around.. haha..
and yeah.. i had to teach at AFC after tht.. so it was Goodbye.. =(
dun like goodbyesss.. :(

they gave me some souveneirs too! =)
Jamie gave me his wristband..
Jordan gave me this card he has kept for very long and wrote a msg to me on it.. =)
Matt gave me stickers. xDDDD and he said he owes me a really long letter when he gets back to aussie..
Steven gave me aussie flag tatoos! hahaha..
been long since i've played with these tatoos! =P
and yup! they all wrote me msges.. ahhh..
gonna miss them all! tho! steven havent gone back yet..
he's gonna be here for a while.. =)
Reached home only at 1am..
and slept at 5am. =/

Saturday, today!
Went to studio and danced till 4pm! O.O
with an empty stomache. =/
was so tired and hungry after tht weih..
almost kena gastric.. =/..
evonne and andrea came also! hahaha.. weee! =)
so yeah had mamak session with B just nw..
feel so exhausted now.. nt enough slp.. =(
Later got post mortem on AFC BC2009 somemore.
woo. tiring day.

Sad day also! =( Aussie friends left edy..
then My Didi also went to the US with his family for 2 weeks!
hw niceee! i also wan e hollie. =(

Missing you already Di! :(
*Huggggggggs*

I cant wait for tmr..
finally gonna go for my first edu fair since after Spm..
and then gonna go over to Kim's place to slp over!
weeeeeeee!! swimmingggg! nyahahahah!
Kay i need to shower now.
i stink.!

the weather was crazily hot today..
sweat like mad. =S
and it made me feeel crankyyyyyyyy! rawrrrr.
xD COLD SHOWER HERE I COMEEE! :D

Sampai Gila.. =(

Just Daaaaaanceeee~~!

Heya! just got back from first session!
taught only the first part of my choreography so far..
hahaa.. tiring but i had fun!! =)

dancing is always fun for meee.. =)

feel like sleeping now tho.. @_@
and yes! i finally cut my fingernails short!
feels so weird now! hahaha finally feeling the flesh of my finger tips again.. =P
i din cut my nails since before spm!
imagine the length of my fingernails. hahhaha..
my hands suddenly looks so weird.. xD
like suddenly so short and.. retarded in a way.. haha.. =P

anyhoo.. cant believe january is almost at its end..
times flying so fast..
and all i did this month was..
go out.. play.. sleep.. dance.. go out.. xDDDDDDD
i need to earn some kachingg !
i wanna buy back a camera asap =(
so many stuffs happening but i got no camera..
wuwuwu.. T_T

kay lerh.
brain kinda dead.
SLEEP! =)

Its so hard to say goodbye to you. =P

Some weird feeling.

just got back from wilson's party
got to see some of my old mates again..
but most of the ppl there were from 5S.
first time going wilson's hse. =)

woooh.
dunno wht i'm feeling now..
like.. some weird feeling...

i know i've alot of things yet to be done..
so so many things.. like..
packing my stuffs.. n getting ready to shift..
get a job and earn back the things i lost..
go to education fairs..
research on scholarships and colleges and courses..
read up on the days i've missed..
and so many more...

but the thing is.. none of the above i have done!
ahhh. =/ feel abit useless atm. =.=..
its like i'm so free yet i'm so busy kinda thing..
ahhhhhhhh i dunnoooo.......
feel kinda lost. confused.. no directions..

feel like i'm wasting my life away..
just coz i'm waiting for results.. =.= zzz..
CELINE YAP KAH MAY WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!
can you like do smth more useful with your life?! .. zz..
huuhuuuuuu..
just my feelings..
but yes. these are exactly wht i'm feeling.. ahh..

I DUNNO WHERE TO START!
Lord please guide and lead mee... :(

the stars lean down to kiss you.

and i lie awake and miss you...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOVENNE LAI!

OHHH WOMAN! cant believe your like... 19! O.O
hahahaha.. so fast eh? =P
i had an awesome time with you today dear! =)
a sleepover would've perfected it tho! hahaha..
sry this entry is like a day late. its like 3am. xD
hahaha. WO AI NIIII! =)
faster go get urself a license u doink!
u should've driven me and lydia since like laaast year!
hahahaha.. But we still love you anyways. =)
rmb. THE WORD.

BE MORE OBSERVANT. :D

xoxo!!!!

ps: lydia din sms. ish. she probably dozed off or forgot. =P
LYDIA MILLER! waiting for ur sms u woman. =P
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i had so much fun todaaaay! dance dance in the afternoon..
then had lunch with bb and di at the mamak infront my hse..
and we went cc! mwahahhaa..!
then we played BBALL and bb kena pwneeeeeeeed! =P

then we headed to jov's place for her bday bbq!
and we took awesome pictures at this really beautiful..
place where the flowers.. PURPLE flowers mind you..
dropped from the treee..
hahaa will upload when free-er. =P
so yes i had a fabulousooo timeee!
i love my weekends always.! ^^

and no probs are still hanging..
maybe getting worse..
tense and whtever..
but with so much loving ppl around me..

i feel alright.. MOST OF THE TIME. =]
despite the.. emo moments.. short ones..
haha. hope for no longer oness..

well.. Lord. i'm gonna trust in You.
pls lead and guide us.
and help me to deal with every problem with strong faith..
coz i've a bigger GOD than any problem that may seem BIG.

I see the best of me inside your eyes

Ohh You make me smile. :)

GOOD Friday gone BAD.

I HAD AN AWESOME FRIDAY. SUPER AWESOME ONE..

untill i went home after AFC.

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG ......?!
I'M SO FREAKING FED UP OF THIS STUPID TOPIC.
WHY CANT WE JUST LET IT GO..
MOVE ON WITH LIFE..
EVERYONE IN THIS WORLD.. SURE GOT PPL THAT ARE SELFISH..
OR UNFAIR OR WHTEVER..
BUT WHEN THINGS DUN GO YOUR WAY..
JUST THINK OF A SOLUTION LA.
SO SENSITIVE AND EMO CAN HELP SOLVE THIS MEH?!

U KNOW HOW SUCKY IT IS TO BE STUCK IN BETWEEN?
YOU KNOW? NOOOOOO . YOU DONT.

I was just laying out the facts of wht just happened..
and u say i scolded you..
the only reason why i was talking slightly louder is because..
you are not LISTENING to me! you're just hearing me out!
and then u say i scolded you.
i dunno how in the world can tht conversation be scolding you..
why would i scold you huh? you know how much i love you anot?
If you do. so why would i scold you?

then u get all sensitive and all..
walaaaaaaao.

i seriously gt nth to say edy..
SIDING?! WHOSE SIDING ANYONE?!

urgh.
sick sick sick.

everythings just THAT simple.
but you all wanna make it so complicated..

thats the stupid crappy dumb problem about HUMANS.
when they're angry with someone.. ALL THE GOOD..
that tht person has done just vanish into thin air.
AND ALL THE BAD COMES IN.

stupid human nature.

i wanna run away.

Aches.

waaaaaaaaah. woke up this morning.. and it was so hard for me to get up from bed.. felt so heavy.. now i understand why it was so hard for me to wake up..

my whole body was aching and is still aching like crazieee.. :(
my neck and shoulders especially.. super tensed up and sore..
rawr. =( i forgot to warm up yday.. and i tot..
nvm la.. i just choreographing.. shouldn't work up myself tht much.

LOOKS LIKE I WAS WRONG! :(

i need a massageeeeee... wuwuwu. =( lesson learnt!
nvr take warm ups for granted. =/

anyways i just came back from OU.
had a great time! hahahaa.. met up with aaron who just came back from aussie!
havent seen him for a year already.
and this time we did smth diff! we din just watch movie and do the same old same old. instead we went karaokeeee!!!!!! :D then we walked around to buy smth..
and then we had sushii! mwahahahah! :D
AARON! i wan pictureeeeees! =)

and we did wht i usually dun do when i go ou..
so it was cool. :D
tho now.. i really need to rest up.
my body is killing meeee. =X

Hee. Massage anyone? =P
*huggs* =)

Your the best thing that has happened to me! and the world will never take, the world will never take you away! :D

ahhhhhhh.. i loveee our late night chats.
mwahahahaa.. i was just about to blog and you sesat restart ur com.
xDDDDDDDD!

its an awesome way to start my day! haha..
altho i slp lateee.. like.. 2am plus and all..
hahaha but seriously our late night chats are PRICELESS! =]

*got a saviour and his living in me! WHOAA OH~! I wanna know, i wanna know you today~! and you're the best thing that has happened to me! and the world will nvr take, the world will nvr take you away!* =)

wooo! i miss those jamming moments..
super nice memories.. haha.. =)
how nice to be hyped up over Hillsongs songs at this time. =P

* So we will Run! all together our hearts Aflamed!! with a fire that cant be tamed! Our God, all glory to your nameee~ JESUS~~~~!! *

Weeeeeee~! High. haha.
Sleep. =)

2.20am.
See? nt tht late right? =P
Ai Niii.! =)

The Way You Smile and How You Comfort Me..With your Laughter. =)

HAPPY REAL BIRTHDAY SHERYL DEAR!
HAHA. yes yes. today, 13th jan is dear's actual birthday! =)
Hope you had a blast today! =) you know theres many of us out there..
thats loves you MORE than *ahem* =P
& GOD loves you more than ANYONE in this world! =)
*huggggggggs!* cant wait to danceeeee with ya on Sat!
Oooh la la~~! hahahahaa. ♥

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Sho today i was a good girl and stayed at home. =P
Felt so stuck in between when someone spoke to me..
about others.. and at night others talk to me abt someone..
ish ish ish. Celine Yap is Officially Fed Up. seriously.! =(
can everyone just get on with lifeeeeeee????
AND MAKE UP YOUR MIND?!
little while this, little while that. ISH.

neways felt much better after i started choreographing a dance! =)
yep yep! helping someone to choreograph a dance..
to Just Dance by lady gaga, I know you want me by Pitbull, Single ladies by Beyonce and I got a feeling by Black eyed Peas!! =)
hahaha seriously? i nvr saw myself choreographing these kinda sexy dances!
so not my stylee! hahaha.. but hey! theres a first for everyone! :D
weee~! almost done! left one song to choreo and thats the last song..

dancing always ALWAYS makes me feel better! =)
I ♥ DANCING! =)

I owe ALOT of people outings! =P
Kimberleyyyy! when are we going out?! =)
Joanne aka Couzie whennnn whenn whennn?!
LYDIA MILLER AND JOVENNE LAI! BILA?!
and soooooo many more people. rawr rawr rawr!

finally meeting aaron from australiaaa tmrrrrrr! =D
wheeeeeee~! then friday AFC resumes! woop! ^^
and meeting natasha! teaching her my dance and probably..
maybe staying over at her hse.. hehe. =D
and saturday is gonna be awesomeeeeeee! dancinggg!
and a party at night! waoooooooo.! =P

kay! need to finish choreographing! =P
Love.! =]

so baby dont worry,i'm alright i'm alright when it knocks you down.
Look into your heart and you'll find love.. love.. lovee
Baby just sayy... Yes. ♥

=(

I can feeel ittt..
but your just not saying anything..
i dunno how or why but i can just feel it. :(

was it coz of me?
did i do or say smth tht accidentally hurt you without me knowing it?
you got to pour out to me..
i know we've made our promises..
but still.. u cant be close to someone if u keep secrets from themm..

And especially when your so close to someone..
you can just tell when tht person is not okay..
not alright.. i want to be there like how you were there for me..
but you need to allow me to..

unless i'm the reason ur not okay..
then confront me.. just dun fake a smile..
just so i dont worry.. d'you know by doing tht..
you make me worry even more?

sighs.
love you too much to see you this way.
='(

Hello everyone! quick update! =) so you see, my blogs been pretty boring without pictures. coz i dun have a camera now. =( but anyhoo! thank God i've friends that love taking pictures as well! hehee. so yes. pictures but nt from my camera. ;)

This was the sunday after the robbery! our dear church friends gave us a lil suprise! hahaa.. they bought us wallets with some money in it! =) how nice of them yeah? the thing that touched me the most was the card especially with all the names of the people who were part of this suprise as the borders. i was really really touched! sniffx! we love you all sooooo sooo much! and we dunno how to thank you all. =')


Then a few of us went to OU! SEE ME posing with the wall? ahah yesh. guess wht? =)

Thats my drawing on one utama's wall when i was 10! yup. sad to say but that was my drawing when i was 10! hahaha.. i drew pots and flowers and birds like tht always last time. =P

Janning and I! =)

so on the 8th of january, we had a suprise bday party for janning!! =)

Boy was she suprised! =p hope u had a blast dear! =]

then on Saturday, 9th January.

We went to Serdang with our new australian friends to have a day of sports! =) hahaa.. ^^ was nice meeting new friends!!! =) then we watched matrix together at night.. pretty awesome day if u ask me.. =)

Sunday, 10th Jan.


Went to Amcorp mall with our aussie friends after church.. ! =)
Observe really carefully the girl beside benson in black. she looks exactly like Kristen Dance aka Mary jane from spiderman! i'm seriousssssss! zoom all u want! hahahaha. =P

and had lunch with them at mamak after tht.. hehehee.. ^^

had an awesome time with them! =) gonna be hanging out with them more this week. haha hopefully. ;)

Then we went to dear's hse for her birthday partyyy!!! =) first time going her hse. like finalaaaayyyy? hahahahaha. *hugs!*

Di came tooo! =) hehee..

So did evonne!!! =) we needa hang out soon girl!

We love you sheryl! =) you've been such a blessing especially to me!
LOVE YOU MUCH SHERYL HO SU LYNN! =)

so yes! that has been my happenings so far! so many more but sadly i didn't have a camera with me! Anyways! i've got good news!

I PASSED MY UNDANG YO!!!

WOOOOOHOOOOOOO~! HAHAHAHA. wheeeeeeeee~! one step closer to getting my license! and and i survived the other 6 hours of amali. JOY JOY JOY! =) jia youuu cykm!!! xD still looking for a jobbbb! =/ i needaaa buy e cameraaaaaaa! neeed neeed neeed want want wantt~! hahaha. =D wht would i do without pictures? =) they bring back such awesome memories. =]

anyways, i'm waiting for my L license! yayy! =) hehe. gonna have a busy end of january! probably going out with aaron from australia on thursday, meeting natasha on friday! to teach her my dance.. afc.. and later mayb stayover at nat's hse! hehee.. then nick and i will go sheryl's studio and after class i'll stay back and choreo dances with sheryl for smth.. hahaha.. dear's helping meee! wht would i do without ya dear? =) and after that am going to e birthday partaaaaaaaaay! hehehehe. =D yes. loadsa loadsa birthdays in january. O.O talking bout birthdays,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN LIEW!!! =)

so yesh man! This is my january. hahaha..
gotta run. :) have tonnes of things to get donee!
Tooodlesss~! ^^

Btw, thanks alot Di.. =)
for cheering me up last night..
And staying up with me tho u were tired.. =]
Sayang you super lots Di!
Your the bestttt.! *hugggs hen da li!* ♥

Shawty's like a melody in my head~

Woo. i've been having so much fun within these 2 days. =)
on friday met up with en ai and eunice wong
tho alot of things didn't go as planned..
but it was alright. =) went to sunway pyramid..
then benson suppose to fetch me to Ou..
to meet up with aaron while he goes to class..
but halfway he decided not to coz he was gonna be late..
so i had to hang around at jaya one alone for like 2 hours plus..
so i went starbucks and bought myself starbucks for the second time. =P

then Aaron came after an hour pick me from there..
and we wanted to go Tropicana city mall..
coz it was near Janning's hse..
and after tht would be a suprise birthday party for janning! hehe.
guess wht? aaron didn't know the way..
so he turned into federal highway on a friday at 6pm +.
Geez man! thts like the worse time to be stuck on federal weih!
=/ so yes aaron, our first outing was kinda abnormal.
hahaha. yes. we got stuck in a long ass jam..
plus we were heading the total opposite way of our destination..
ahaha bt not bad.. we got to see the sunset.. =)
and the scenery was awesome! and we had a long talk through out the jam.
so i guess i really had fun. despite how boring jams are..
hahahahaa.. i had fun! serious. =)

and we sorta got lost or miss the u-turn to tropicana..
so we got lost and ended up at a petrol station opposite eastin hotel..
which had dunkin donuts! xD so then aaron treated me to Dunkin donuts. =P
hahahahaha... and yeah we talked all the way to Jan's hse..
so yeah man! its weird.. but.. i enjoyed our first outing together.
xD. its smth different really. abnormal. guess thats wht makes it special?
aha. nt some normal outin walkin in the mall nw isnt it? =P
so reached jan's hse, suprised her.. or rather.. screamed at her. aha! =P
and yeah we played taboo all the way till 1am. O.O
it was fun! my first time playing taboo! hahaa.. they all so bad..
they kept teasing the way i play taboo! =/
but i had fun. =)

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Saturday! was suppose to play badminton with di shen..
but change of plans. =( sry! postpone k! not canceled. :D
then went to Sheryl's studio at 1pm to 2pm.!
had super lot fun! hehehe..why wouldn't i?
i was doing smth i really love with people i love! ehehe..
plus i was dancing lyrical hip hop weih! a dance style i adore. =)
was with dear! =) finally got her hugs! hehehe..=)
AND! NICHOLAS KAM CHING JEE! tipu me harrrr..!
hahaha.. i asked Di if he was going for the futsal thingy in the evening..
he told me maybe he would.. i asked where he was..
he said somewhere. mana tau when i reached the studio he suddenly..
appeared infront of me! hahahaha.. oh maaaan! u arrrr.. :)
like to give me suprises! hahahaha.. *hugggs* =)

after that! went to serdang with we youth ppl PLUS a group of australian youths! hehe.. its always nice meeting new friends you noe! =) and i felt so smallllll! there were alot of them who were younger than me but waaaaaaaay taller than me.. PLUS.. those who were my aged.. were even taller and bigger. =/ felt so small. =S but their nice people! hehe. =) so they played basketball and futsal! was fun getting to noe some of them! =) serious! hahahaa.. and first time i finally get to see Di play futsal! hahaa.. Di u super pro larh! course pro mar.. someone in national team. =P xD then went back church and we the same group of ppl watched Matrix!! i cant believe that there are still people who havent or nvr watched Matrix before! my goodness! O.O but yeaaah it was funn! been a while since i've last saw tht movie anyways.. =) haha.. and AGAIN! DI! u tipuuu mieeeeeeeeeee.. :( i went toilet. came back he not there d. i asked him whether he ciao edy.. he said yeaaaaa... THEN suddenly after quite a while.. i saw this boy hiding behind someone.. Hmmph! tht time i dun wan layan him edy. xD i just walked away. hahahaha.. Pffft! aiyer u ar! 2 times in a row in a day! Next time wont so easily tipu-ed by you edy! *bish* so yeaah! really had an awesome awesome daaay.. :)

after movie went to Mohsin .. Again. lollll...
so yesh that was my day.. and i so totally need to sleep now..
coz its 2.30am and i've to wake up in another.. 5 hours. =P
and tmrs gonna be a long day for me!!!
church.. edu fair.. sheryl's party!
woo woo~!

good Morningggg! :D

Never Knew I Needed

for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)

for the ending of my first begin
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
for the way you're something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after) (oh oh oh)
the way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

you're the best thing i never knew i needed (oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it's so clear i need you here always

who'd knew that i'd be here (who'd knew that i'd be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

boy you're the..
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (said i needed oh oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (needed oh)
so now it's so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it's so clear i need you here always

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In love with this song. =)

Love love loveeeeeeeeee~!
super awesome songgggggg. =]

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Ps: Happy 17th Birthday LIM KIEN BENG!!
you're like 17 edyyy.. =) same age as mee! hahaha..
I miss you apple.. so so much.. *hugs*

Happy 19th birthday also to CHOO KOK HOW! =)
you're probably Gone by now. aha. xD

xoxo.

Gonna miss these times.

Just got back from jogging at desa parkcity with kok sime and chi wing. =) been a while since we went jogging together! and i really missed it.. and i'm gonna miss these times.. walking to desa.. running and then walking back.. =) i guess you wont really realize how much you'll miss it till you know you're not gonna be able to do this with them that often anymore.. =/

but yeah.. right now every single moment ..
walking there and all.. seems so precious.. hahaha..
not wanting to make any of u emo larh..
just saying wht i feel and my thoughts. =)
so yeah man! i had an awesome time really!
and yeah baby! i still have my stamina! hahahaa...
i thought after running one round i'm gonna bbe GONE.
ahahaa but i was still okay and happy and was like..
yeaaaah baby! i was meant to run today! hahaha..
the weather was awesome really.. =)
and lalala~ we had a great session chatting and catching after tht didn't we?
=D feels so weird how we're so free.. FOR NOW.
but quite cool lah. its like i can just call them and say..
come! jogging .. NAO! hahahaa. and they're ON. =P
last time got excuses like tuition and all.. pfft!
those days are goneeeeeeeeee! FOR NOW. xD

so yeah man! tmr meeting en ai and eunice wong! =)
they're in KL ! haha.. and then smth special at night..
and saturday badminton! wheee~! been long since we've had our badminton session yeah friends? =) cool cool. and after that its dancingggggg! ^^
quite cool larh. at least i'm not lazing at home! hehe..
wheeeee~! =) theres so much more to life than..
crying and emoing at home about wht i've lost..
i'm gonna get my butt out there.. work..
and buy back what i lost. this time even better! =D

BRING IT ON BABEH~! ;)

Friends i miss you!
Rmb, the night before it happens!
SBV here we comeeee~! hehe. =]

Its hard to believe that i'm gonna be 18. =P

ahhh. yes. finally went to listen to the 6 hours ceramah for Undang.
my gosh. it was pure torture..and super super boring.. =.=
tho i din sleep.. guess wht?!


my teacher looked exactly like the guy on the left from white chicks. but he's just the malay version. PLUS! he is a super joker lar seriously. yeah he's a funny guy.. he made us all laugh alot.. but guess wht? after 2 hours, only he actually start telling us about drving. before tht was all crap. seriously. after 2 hours only he teach us how to hold the steering wheel. my gossssssssssssh. geeeez man. i can conclude tht the whole 6 hours, only 2 hours were filled with useful information.the rest were pure crap and a waste of time.

anyhoo.. gonna study the book and plan to take my undang..
on tuesday, 12th Jan.
hopefully i pass and everything goes as planned..
i realize how maa fan taking driving license is. ish..
seriously. Zzz. after pass undang need to hear another 6 hours.
omggggggggg.. of amali. ahhh. sien-ness...
anyways yeah.. that was practically my day. heh.
pretty boring one... i feel so no life.
dunno why. =P

I NEED SOME SENSE OF DIRECTION..
Lord please show me....and lead me..
guide me and mould me..

And Dear is sick and not feeling well. =(
dear i hope you get better real real quick!!
i'm praying for you! =) *BIG BIG HUGS*
Ai ni dear.! =)

my heart tells me to take that risk..
but my brain tells me to stay far away.
kinda stupid if you ask me.
Hmm. Maybe danger and risk attracts me in a way.

"I'm not alone, the frogs Pei me marhhh.." =)

Hieeee! i'm baaaaaaaack! celine yap is back! =)
yesh yesh. yesterday was terrible. i felt..so..
soo.... sooooooooooo Angry i didn't noe wht to say.
was so quiet. din talk. much. till at night..
and i felt so sad.. so.. soooooooooo sad.

but then .. =) Didi to the rescue!
haha.. he text me before he slept wishing me goodnight..
and i replied but my reply showed tht i was not okay..
and he called .. =) and guess wht?! he managed to make me smile and laugh even. =) and thats so rare when i'm really down. haha. Di how can i not sayang you huh? =) You're the best Di! sayang you banyyaaaaak-banyaaaaak! seriously. =] *hugs hugs hugs huggggs!*

Thanks alot also sheryl dear for texting me..
Janning who asked me whts wrong..
Chi wing who also msged me and was there for me..
Marilyn dear for being so concern..
Yee siang for your concern..
Andrea for calling today..

and many other people who cared for me..
and showed your concern. just want you to know..
that i really really appreciate it alot. seriously alot.
tho yesterday when you guys approached me..
i didn't feel like talking..so sry guys. coz when i'm reli angry..
i'm a really quiet person.. =/ and i just wanna .. keep quiet..
and dun talk.. and all.. but towards the night i became angry to sad..
so yeaaah...

and Di smsed at the right time. =)

i feel so much better today seriously.
coz i did much things.. well at least i did stuffs..
and somethings actually progressing in my life. =)
i registered for my undang test edy!
and i applied for a Job at starbucks curve!
i'm still waiting for answer.. and at the mean time..
i'm still job hunting. who knows, i may find better paying jobs. =D
anyone wanna introduce ? hee. feel free to do so!
sms me or smth. =)
so yeah. accomplished some things today. happy bout tht.
and yesh, listening to the ceramah tmr.. and hope to get my license real real fast! =)
was with marilyn the whole day. =) thanks for being there dear!
i lovee you. =)

so yes. yday i got my temporary IC done.
but i dont like the picture tho. =/
i dun like taking passport photos or stuffs like tht.
hahaa. i'm bad at them. =P bleh.
kay larh. i can only come online a while..when i hav the chance to.
using aunt's laptop. gtg! and i thank God for awesome friends around me.
Love all of you seriously alot.

Hugs & Kisses!
=)

Nvr felt so angry before.

yea. i know. alot has been happening and all.
everything kinda sucks when u've lost stuff.
but there are other things more important than those stuff i've lost.
i'm angry nt coz only of tht.

i'm angry about so many other things.
so many i dont even feel like talking about it..
i dunno why. i've never felt so angry before..
so angry but i dont feel like talking it out..

everything feels so messed up atm.
messed up u just feel like running away..
but then again thts just wht u feel..
but its life. its nt some fairytale where u run away and live happily ever after.
wishful thinking that is.

i can feel it.
the anger that rose up so quickly within me tonight..
and everything came flooding in..
thoughts.. emotions..mentality..
confusion.. fear..

mayb i dun feel like talking abt it coz i'm a person..
thats very quiet.. especially when i'm very .. very mad or angry..
i thought i could express it here..
but i guess nothings coming out of me.

Night.

Home, the safest place now feels so insecured and dangerous.

House got robbed.

yes. 2nd day of 2010 and my hse got robbed.
i usually sleep late. why did i sleep at 2am yday?
sighs. got robbed around 2.30am.
everyone is okay but we lost alot of things.
i lost the most.

since i dun hav a laptop to come on9 now..
anything pls reach me through my handphone..
no more pictures for me to take as well..
as i dun have my camera either..
like i said. i lost the most.

heck it.
please pray for my family and I.
thanks alot.
coz i've got a feeling they're planning to come back.
they showed signs.

ahh whtever lar.
thanks for everyones concern.

gonna be goin cc often now. maybe. O.O
zz. ciao.

New Year's Eve Countdown 2009!

Qian came to pick me up at around 2pm and we went to OU to hang out. =) then she dropped me off at curve at 5pm..


Saw rehearsals going on! i was there alone for quite a while.. 1 hour plus i think.. coz everyone else were stuck in a jam. haha..
then i bought tickets for me,benroy,nick,joe,aaron and li nar to watch the vampire's assistant at 7.45pm! while nick, bb and i waited for aaron they all.. we had dinner at Mc.D! =) GUESS WHO I SAW?!

I saw Marilyn Darling! i was lining up when i turned behind.. suddenly i saw a girl pointing to me and shouted "darling!" hahahaha.. then only i realize it was Marilyn. =P hahaha so happy to see u larh dear! u know how much i miss you?! it feels like i've not seen u in millions of years! =) then 3 of us went to watch the movie first. coz the other 3 were late. so i left their tickets with the ticket guy. hahaa. =P


Aaron!


Li Nar!


Nick! Yesh. i kena spray so fast. wanna know whose da culprit?


Tadaa! ZECH CHAN! lol. while we were watching movie he sudd msged joe and said he was here! so yeah he waited for us to finish the movie. we didn't know he was coming. it was a sudden thing. xD so he had to wait for us to come out from the movie


My two Didi. =)


Joe!! =)


=.=


the group! =)


haha wht la they all.. so fast start spraying


the crowwwd!


Jaclyn Victor! she was the best performer for me that night! =)


See Jac right behind us? hahah. we were way behind at first, and when some artist wanted to pass by, those RELA ppl were blowin the whistle askin ppl to give way. so Nick and I went right behind the two first RELA guards. xD everyone were staring and thinking which artist are they?! ahahah! yesh! we were walkin infront of the artist. =P lalala~! then Mum and Dad were in SectoR A right infront the stage! only ppl with passes can go in. but mum asked the guard to let us in! so yup! we were right at the stage! wheee! so near i could've pulled Jac's leg. =P awesomeee! too bad the rest of the group went to makan! =P they left to eat when the best performer was about to perform. wht a waste. =/


love this shot! =)


I got a feelin~ Wooooohooooo~!


the emcees!


we sho happy! hahahaha =)


Love this pic! =)


Di!


woot! sector A!


Faizal Tahir


7 minutes till countdown! =)


So ngam. he turn then i snaped! haha.


Love the lighting!


and the countdown began!


Beautiful! =) even more beautiful when you're appreciating its beauty with your loved ones. =)


fireworks above us! hehe. =)


Daddy and Mummy! =)


2010 edy! =)


sooooo near the stage. soooooo not crowded. soooooo cooling. =P


Then Di and I went to meet up with the rest of the group behind..but they were buying Mc.D and the party had just begun!! so Bb,Di and I went to enjoyyyy the partay! hehe. =P


Kena spray by strangers. xD i only sprayed foam on Bb and Di leh! so innocent. xD


hahah strings from strangers. =P


joe happy 2010! =)


BB! dun so down! at least we had fun after that right? =)


Di so glad u came! =)


Aaron happy new year!! Glad you came! =) glad you had a blast too! hahahaa..


Li Nar nice meeting you this year! =)


Us minus BB


Us. =) Love!


So yup. Daddy was so nice. he offered to send them to the kelana jaya lrt coz all of them was using lrt to go back and they wanted take taxi but it would've cost a bom. so daddy fetched them. dunno why end up they all went church. then li nar's dad fetched them to bukit jalil where aaron's car was. while me,mummy and bb waited at the curve.. =)


Awesome and the Best countdown for new year's eve i've ever had so far! like i said in my previous entry, its all coz of the people! i was with people tht i sayang alotttt! =) and they made everything better in every way! =) I LOVE MY START OF 2010!xoxo