Tuesday, November 22, 2011

The Honest Truth.

Hey all.

The picture on the left describes exactly what i'm feeling right now..Probably even better than any words put together, could.

I'm pretty sure that most of you already know that i haven't been having the best 2 months of my life. It has been a struggle. It really has. And today, I was right at the edge, ready to fall.. ready to let go.. ready to surrender.

I am usually the strong one. The tough cookie! someone who everyone thinks, feels or believes that.. "Nahhh..Who u kidding?! You're Celine Yap! i'm sure you'll be just fine." Truth is, No matter how strong one can be, We can only take so much. In the end of the day, we're still humans. In the end of the day, we'll break at some point.
I've been under immense stress in all aspects of Life. You name it. Family, Friends, Studies, etc. And as much as I believe that God is the only one you can turn to without having to fear of being disappointed or let down, truth is, Humans need other humans. That is why God gave Adam, Eve. We're made to complement each other.

Honestly, sometimes when i'm in the library, reading up cases, the same question pops up from time to time. The very same question that bothered me ever since A-levels. " Why are you doing this? Why are you studying Law? Is this really what You want? " My first choice was definitely not Law. In fact, my choice was the complete opposite of Law! The Entertainment Field. Something I love, something i grew up around, something i've experienced. But for obvious reasons, I didn't quite have the choice to have such a choice. Hence, Law. My second option. I didn't like the idea of getting myself into a field where most of the people have the "Dont care" attitude unless it concerns their money or unless it hurts their pocket. Lets face it, The world today is such where the mention of words like Justice! carries less weight and meaning.

Why are you studying Law?
= Because i want to help others. I want justice. i want to fight for it.

Answer this, and the world laughs at you with their skeptical looks shouting " OH PUHLEAAASEE~ "

My question to the people who would respond in that manner is..

Seeing the Life of most people in the Law field really makes me sad and worried. They work round the clock and do what they do solely to increase the number of digits on their pay cheque. And what happens next, when your old and grey? In the end, it has always been JUST about money. To most people, that would be the ultimate goal and satisfaction. Though, i really wonder if it really IS satisfying at all in the end. I guess it is very subjective. But that is definitely a road i dont want to take. Definitely not a Life I would like to lead. And that is why, ever since i started my Law Degree, the only motivating factor? = It is a very good and useful degree.

Thats all. that all that was keeping me going. Really.
Untill I met Richard Wee. The chairperson of the National Young Lawyers Committee.
He gave a talk that gave me hope. It was very comforting to know that there are still a group of lawyers who are working, not solely because of money, but they try their best to help out people in need whenever they can. They're my inspiration really. It was very comforting to know that as skeptical as the world is about lawyers being people who want to fight for justice and to help people even if they dont have enough money,the fact that they DO exist? It really stirred up this Hope, this Energy, this Want, this Spur, to be just like them when i one day become a lawyer. To make a change. To BE the change.

I realize how many of us in this generation often feel like we are incapable of making any change. How we have the " Nahh I'm sure there is someone out there who would get the job done." My question to you is, What if everyone said the same thing?! Nothing will ever change then. No?

If you want to see a change, Make the change! BE the change!
Sometimes you feel like, Who am I? that I can possibly make such a change? I'm not high ranked, I'm only a student, I have not much influence, I dont have a special Title. Guess what?
I honestly believe that everyone is capable of doing just anything as long as they set their heart to do so.

You want something? Go for it. You have an Idea, a dream, a plan, you wish to do something? GO FOR IT. Dont let it pass you by. Dont let it just linger in your thoughts. OF COURSE, it is easier said than done. So many times i tell myself , "Wish i was there. wish i was competing like the other crews out there. Wish i was the actress i wanted to be when I was little. Wish i was at least acting somewhere in some Malaysia Actors Association yada yada " So many dreams I had, So many I let go, So many i let pass me by. We all have our own set of limitations. but i guess, If we really wanted something, We'd go out of the way just to get it. That's what I believe. Though, Sometimes, we must of course be practical.


Just you wait for my pictures. =P
And Kimberley Ong, You will be with me in those pictures. =)

Also, during the past week, I dont know why, but it felt as if everyone who I opened up to seemed to be running away and disappearing from my Life at the time i need them most. Not all of them. Though, most of them. " How much harder/tougher can things get? " I guess theres nothing more saddening at such tough times than knowing/seeing the people who you opened up to leave you when you need them most. I felt so alone. So alone in all this mess. How low can one get?

Now, How am I suppose to open up to more people after this?
Its just too difficult.

Anyways, dont worry too much about me.
I'm a tough cookie remember?


Thursday, November 17, 2011

Been going through David cook's songs and i really like these 3. =)

3.19 - 3.30   my fav part of the whole video..
This song is so nice. So understanding. And so true how no one can fix yourself, but you. Its a journey you'd have to go through yourself. But knowing someone is there, following u closely behind as u partake this journey? Its just so comforting.

And these 3 songs have been on replay. =)
You should check out his live videos. He's still so good Live.
What I call true talent.


Tuesday, November 15, 2011

1. if u dont trust me, why bother asking me?
2. Why do you have to let it linger?
3. i take back wht i said about christina perri. A thousand years is awesome. :)
4. Without You by david guetta and usher is so nice. Totally felt the song the 1st time i heard it.
5. Journey's faithfully is soooo touching. The boyce avenue cover has been on replay!
6. I have been under SO MUCH STRESS. D:
7. sometimes i feel like i cannot afford to fall because there will be no one there to catch me. i know i have God. but lets face it, humans need other humans no matter how tough we are.
8. i really needed a friend on friday. Sighs. 11.11.11
9. Was so busy hosting friends from overseas..
10. With You~ Shawty with You~~ Under the Miseltoe.. =) Stupid line stuck in my head the whole week! hahaa.. Justin Bieber's Miseltoe. =)
11. why... why.. why... but i know why. but why? =(
12. i miss kim alot.
13. i decided to go for prom. Still dont know why i'm going though.. =/
14. ='(
15. My car has been breaking down like no ones business. in the middle of the highway also got. *headsdown*
16. I am only one person and I can only do so much. for the past 2 weeks, i felt like i've been torn into a hundred pieces.
17. Took a week off from the internet last week..
18. Not performing in malls this December. Gonna be a very different dec! thought i'd be free this dec, but i thought wrong! LOL. SOOO BUSY with SOO many other things! ahhh..~
19. I could use a very long silent hug.
20. i've been having trouble sleeping. =( i can lay on my bed for few hours before i can finally fall asleep. and after a few hours, i wake up. =(
21. yats. tnod og.

Tuesday, November 08, 2011

Dear Ladies..

It is sad to see how the world has changed to one where man and woman are equal at almost everything! So much so, women are now making the initiative to do things that should be left to the Men to do! As much as we'd like to have gender equality, i really think that some areas should be left untouched, just the way it is. A friend recently shared an article with me, which totally motivated me to blog. hahaa..

Love. Relationships. Soul Mates. Mr. Right.

Tonnes of questions that sometimes make u want to pull ur hair out right?! Guys say we girls are confusing. sometimes i really feel that guys are just as confusing! No jokes. =)

I'll share the article with you at the end of this entry. but i'll quote parts of the article which i think really hit me. =)

"First we must allow our Heavenly Father to do the picking. And second, the decision for a mate must be made on a spiritual and intellectual basis before it's made on an emotional one. "What about love? Shouldn't that be the third?" you ask. No, and I'll tell you why. "The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? (Jeremiah 17:9).
The heart is willful and is driven by its own agenda. It does not consider things rationally and intelligently--it just loves to love! Therefore, you have to point it in the right directions: "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life" (Proverbs 4:23). "

 Too often, we act according to what we feel. how we feel. Too often, we are led by our emotions. We let our emotions get the better of us. But if u sit down, and think it through, u'd realize that alot of things that happen in our lives are totally not about how we feel. the world certainly doesn't revolve around us. What more about how we feel? but i guess its human nature to act based on what we feel. But we shouldn't really. Because above all things, the heart is deceitful. 

* Friendship, Courtship, Marriage. 

How many of you actually know these stages? haha. this world we live in now? we just LOVE jumping into things and skipping stages. really. How many people do you know that actually have a firm and stable friendship before getting into a relationship? What about you? Did you have a firm and stable friendship before getting into a relationship with your current partner? How well did you know him or her when you asked him or her to be yours? I definitely agree that you will never ever stop learning about your partner. You never will. You just have to keep on learning and studying your partnet as time goes by because they change as time goes by. But still, how many of you actually knew your guy, before u said Yes?

Friendship is two people walking together in agreement and accountability, learning and growing together. 
Courtship follows the mutual agreement to commit to one another exclusively--it is the decisive turning toward the agreed-upon goal of the marriage altar. It is a period of laying a foundation and preparing your life together after marriage.

How many couples do you know that got into a relationship, believing that one day, this will be the guy i'll marry? or do you get into a relationship just because you feel lonely? because you think, "Man, i could really use a boyfriend right now. " ? Hahaha. its really sad to see how so many people nowadays fail to appreciate the seriousness of getting and committing to a relationship. So many people take it so lightly! I see people getting together over night! or because they feel all lovey dovey when they're together and right away, they think, YES! WE'RE READY! WE SHOULD BE TOGETHER! =DDDDD! seriously, if that is the reason why u got into a relationship, let me ask u then. What if that lovey dovey stage is long gone and passed? do u think the both of you will still work out? 

and another thing that REALLY bugs me la. seriously. Dear girls and ladies! PLEAAASEEEE stop trying to play the role of a Man! Sometimes, You just gotta let a Man do what He's gotta Do! Stop being so impulsive! Stop trying to take control and try to plan everything so that, he will have the opportunity to confess his feelings. Or trying to give him STRONG HINTS like super obvious HINTS to tell him, Hey, im ready. ask me now ask me nowwwwwww~~~~~~~~~~! 

Does this man want you? Is he pursuing you? The man who is right for you will pursue you, and God's hand in the relationship will be clear.

No guessing, no fleeces, no dead ends. Scripture says: "He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord" ( Prov.18:22).

Note--who finds whom? THE MAN FINDS THE WIFE. From the beginning of time, God has transported men and women across the world in order to put them together. At the RIGHT TIME, He will bring that man on the scene and he will find you. In God's perfect design, the man is the one who recognizes his mate. Adam had no problem recognizing that Eve was his missing rib. You do not need to strategically place yourself anywhere. You don't have to help a guy out because he's shy! Men will do whatever they have to do to get what they truly want.

The man in your life should recognize you as the pearl of great price in his life and be willing to do whatever he must in order to gain your hand. If he is passive about gaining your affections, take it as a sign that he is not interested. 

Relax, sit pretty and allow yourself to be found. Again,--WAIT until the man voices his intentions. He should take the lead in establishing the relationship. You may have an inkling that he is the one, but God will use the man to set the tone of the relationship. Allow him the opportunity to woo you--this is your first act of submission. Jesus set the standard for all men to follow. They should love us first. And they should lead the relationship.

WAIT. Girls.. Wait! Honestly? If a guy truly wants you, he'd go all out for you. Even if he has to build up the most courage he has ever had to, just to go after you! Seriously, seriously. If he really wants you, He'd go after you. He'd pursue You. He'd realize that man, i really cannot afford to lose Her. i really cannot afford to let her pass me by! If he wants you, he will come get you! He wouldn't leave you hanging, filled with uncertainties, confusion and questions! And girls, i know that this is the part where you'd go all crazy.. trying to figure out if He really does want you. And then you get so fed up with guessing, You start taking things into your own hands with the feeling that, "Gosh, u guys just dont know how to do anything anymore. If i dont make this move, nothing will ever happen. " and then u try to drop big hints here, there and everywhere! and u try to prompt him to give u an answer. to make his move. to affirm you that he feels the same way as u do. We try so hard to find someone to find us! seriously. hahaa.. and u know what?! we girls always reserve that special spot in our hearts even before we are sure of what the guy truly feels for us! We reserve, even before we are sure. And then when the guy turns around and say, Sorry, i think we should just be friends. You feel the most piercing words, pierce right through your heart. Please girls, Untill He voices out his intentions, dont reserve a spot. dont lock down your heart and block out the rest. Sometimes u may feel as if, He's the one! im sure he's the one! Honestly girls? both you and I will never know what the future holds. Seriously. No matter how perfect you think you both would make as a couple? Things can happen out of a sudden and turn your world 360 degrees. None of us, No one, would ever know what the future has in store for us, except God. 

And finally, 

If the man you meet makes you feel that you need to completely reinvent yourself, something is wrong. This is where I ask you to consider the relationship in terms of cost. Is this relationship expensive spiritually, emotionally, or physically? Does your longing for a mate make you willing to forfeit who you are in the process? Or does he see you as the gift that you are? The man in your life should consider you as a rare find, a priceless jewel--because of you he is getting ready to get blessed big-time!

Any relationship that causes you to feel unworthy, unlovely, unacceptable, undesirable, or that you have to work for love, is too expensive! God has called the man to cover, protect, and provide not only materially for a woman, but emotionally and spiritually as well. You should be richer in mind, body and spirit for your union with the man of your dreams. The man in your life should make rich deposits into your heart and spirit, not withdrawals.

Dear ladies.. as cliche as it may sound, A guy has to love you for who You are. Not for who you can become. Or not for who he wants you to become. A guy who truly loves you, will see your weaknesses and flaws and still think that you're amazing. A guy who truly loves you, will accept you for who you are. He'd not only take the good side of you, but also the bad side of you. What kind of friend or partner would he be if he only appreciated and accept Your Good side but trash you when Your Bad side surfaces? do you think such a friend or guy would be someone you could spend the rest of your life with?

A guy who really likes you, loves you, will take both Good and Bad. And even after taking in the Bad, The Good would still make the bigger picture. If he ever made u feel unworthy, unacceptable.. if he ever failed to acknowledge you.. rather keep you as a secret.. is ashamed of sharing you to His world.. Then please girls. Let it go. And leave. Such a guy is not worth your time. your love. your feelings. that special spot. your heart. He is definitely not worth hurting over. definitely not worth it.

then again, whether someone is worthy or not is a very subjective question. 
then again, sometimes you cant help but still take in all the hurt and pain and yet still feel, its okay. not everyone is perfect. 
then again, sometimes the softer side of you gets the better of you. So much so, you dont mind hurting for someone who apparently, isn't worth hurting over.

but i guess, all of these, they're a process of Life.. things some people just have or had to go through. different people react differently to similar situations.

But despite all our differences, I really do believe that We girls should really learn to take a step back, and stop trying to control everything and every area of our lives. i know we can be awesome superwomans and be the best multi-tasker on earth, but as i said earlier, sometimes, some things are just meant to stay the way they are. In the past, present, and future. 

Sometimes, You just gotta let a man do, what a man's gotta do.
So take a step back, breathe, and stop trying to play the role a guy should be playing.

the full article is here if you'd like to read it up.

i hope you were blessed like how i was by this article.

And to end this entry, this is my prayer and hopefully, the prayer of the rest of you girls. =)

Dear Heavenly Father,

I confess that I have not always been as careful as I should've been with my heart. From time to time, my desire for love has caused me to leave my heart in the wrong hands. I now commit my heart into Your hands for safekeeping. Please help me to stop being so impulsive with what you deem so precious. As I learn to celebrate Your love for me, let me learn from Your example what a bridegroom should really be like. Help me to never settle for less than what you desire for me. As I embrace You as the Lover of my soul, keep my affections in the haven of Your own heart. As I rest in Your love, make me more discriminating of those who approach me. I ask that You take over this area of my life. Keep me from those You know would hurt my heart. I invite You to set a hedge around me and keep me from all who would draw me into unfruitful relationships until the day you present me to the mate that You have selected for me. Grant me the discernment to recognize him as he recognizes me. Cleanse me from the temptation to typecast the men I meet according to what I see. Help me to trust in Your knowledge and lean not on my own understanding. I know that You know what is best for me; therefore I yield to Your choice. In Jesus Name. Amen.


Wednesday, November 02, 2011

God is pulling Me through rainstorms heavy enough to prepare Me for a long lasting rainbow.


Tuesday, November 01, 2011

She's Back! :)

Hello all !

i know in my previous entry i said tht i wanted to stop blogging for a while.. and even now, i still dont think i'm ready to be back blogging. But something has happened to me.. something so amazing. And I'd be selfish to keep this testimony to myself. I cannot keep this to myself.. I want the whole world to know of what i've experienced.. and i dont know what you'd think.. but to me.. this is something really amazing.. =) and this is something i'd like to share.

The past week hasn't been the best week i've had. To be honest, the past week have been one that was really difficult, painful and .. it was just a really tough week for me. it really was. But let me just share with you, One event that happened.

On thursday, when i was working in SEGI college.. When i went to the toilet.. I forgot my phone was in my pocket.. and bent down and the phone fell right into the toilet. it was a squatting toilet. Yeah ok.. go ahead.. laugh. Done laughing? Okay. so let me continue.. =P ( terrible person! ) it definitely wasn't funny at all when it happened.. it really wasn't.. in fact.. it was so shocking.. that when i saw my phone falling in.. i asked myself.. " WHATS THAT?! " and after one second..when i heard the thing that dropped reach the bottom of the pipe.. i realized.. *GASP!* MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!! :O !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it was a really shocking moment for me.. i couldn't believe what just happened! it all happened so quickly! and so.. i straight away asked one of the ladies from the office for help! And instead of laughing at me, she went.. "SHIT ok! " and she ran to the office and told another girl and asked her to call the maintenance people..but sadly, they were all out for lunch.. So yes.. the word spread.. so everyone in the office knew i dropped my phone in the toilet.. some laughed.. some just shook their heads. And the thing that kinda got me annoyed.. was the fact that everyone ... EVERYONE.. kept asking me what model my handphone was! Okay, i know thats like a normal reaction la k.. but still, me, being the sentimental person i am.. i couldn't care less abt the phone! ( i dunno la..it really showed me how materialistic the world can get ) when my phone dropped into the toilet, part of my heart dropped together with my phone as well.. it really did. i suddenly felt part of my heart.. stripped away.. just like that. reason being? I keep smses. i do that. and.. there are some smses that are in my phone.. smses that i can nvr get from people whom i used to be close to.. or people who are no longer in my life.. or people who are still in my life.. msges that i really treasure.. and the funny part is? i even keep sent msges! LOL. i didn't understand that part of me.. untill wednesday.. when i realized and finally understood why i keep sent msges. i was so happy when i finally understood why! and i was about to tell some of my close friends.. But right before i could tell them why, this had to happen. I keep sent msges because.. honestly.. i really go through alot.. and sometimes.. when i become sooooo down.. when there are times where im at my lowest point.. I tend to forget who i really am. Who i was.. before i got so emo.. and when i read back my sent msges.. these msges remind me of who Celine Yap was before all this emoness.. =) and so yeah.. u may find this strange.. but because most of the time i play the comforter role.. sometimes, i do feel as if i've no one to turn to. (but i know y'all are there for me! i know..) its just sometimes i feel that way. so yes, when i've finally understood why..and i actually felt really happy that i kept these sent msges.. it all got stripped away in a matter of seconds! my heart.. ahhh..pain.. =(

kk back to the story. SO ANYWAYS.. when the maintenance guy came, he used a torchlight and i could see my phone! so he locked the toilet door.. and put the out of service sign so no one could use tht toilet. And he actually went to the basement where the pipe was..and there was this hole.. where if my phone was small enough, it could come out from there. but suddenly, his boss came.. and he was like.. No la cannot cannot. sure cannot come out the hole is too small. then after a while..He said.. sorry la girl. it cannot be done. *My heart sank even further* "even if we got ur phone out, it'll be gone case edy. coz it's been in the water for hours already.." and i said.. "but its not the phone tht i care about.. its the things in the phone..like my contacts etc.." and after tht..he finally decided to help and said tht he'll get his workers to buy the clipper thing to try clip my phone out from the toilet and he asked me to come back the next day, friday. So yeah.. feeling so hopeless.. i prayed.

I prayed that i would get back my phone.. and i prayed that when i get back my phone.. all my smses..all my contacts..everything..it will be there. it will still be there.

and this time, when i prayed.. I chose to practice what i've been sharing with others. and that is to.. BELIEVE.. to believe in God. to believe that God is ABLE! ask yourself. How many times have you prayed for something but right after you pray, U doubt. U doubt tht whatever u prayed for wont come true? that it is impossible? you answer that yourself.

Like i said before in my previous entries.. If YOU yourself dont believe what you are asking God for.. What then are you expecting?!

This time, i chose to stand firm.. and believe..! no matter how impossible the situation may seem. i chose.. to Believe. and that is exactly what i did. when i went home.. and told a few people.. these were their responses..

" HAH?! tomorrow only take out?! Sure gone edy lor ur phone! Soaked in water for a whole day! "

Doubts came flying and rushing towards me. But i stood firm. and I believed.

The next day, Friday..
Went to SEGI.. they told me that they can only help me do it on Saturday. :O?!!!!!!!!!!
this time, everyone who heard, told me..
"Im sorry but u just have to accept the fact that your phone is gone. U really do.. U'll only get disappointed."

I stood firm. i REFUSED to doubt. i really refused to.

Saturday, the maintenance guy called me. His name is Syaiful. it wasn't his working day, but he chose to go back to SEGI and try to help get my phone out.. He tried with the clipper. but failed..it just couldn't come out. kept falling back down. so he went back to the basement.. tried to get it out from the pipe.. and in the end.. guess what he did? he cut the pipe to get my phone out. Now, ask yourself. Why would someone go through all these troubles just to help this girl who doesn't even study at SEGI college get back her phone?! and PLUS. its not even some chunted iphone blackberry ish kinda phone. Why? But he did anyways. and i got back my phone.

The minute i got back my phone, i opened it up.. and boy did it stink.! ya ya kk ewww la ewww la. Pfft.. then i dried it up with tissues.. and tried to use my kleenex wet wipes to kill bacteria and take away the smell. hahaa..quite fail la.. it still smelled. LOL. ANYWAYS.. went home, used the hair dryer to dry it.. left it there the whole day.. sunday, did the same thing. And i chose not to tell anyone about me getting back my phone. Coz i know when they find out.. they'd start doubting..and they'd start telling me stuffs to make me doubt. so i just kept quiet..and stood firm.

came home..told dad abt it..there was one of those gold thingy for the battery..it was sort of black..ish.. looked burnt..so did the golden thing on the battery.. but anyways.. Dad asked.. "Was it on when it fell in? " "Yes." "HUH..then gone edy. sure sot edy..If it can work, i'd be amazed! "

so i went and try..but before tht..he helped me clean the black part..with i dunno what.. and then..he tried to on it.. but fail. cannot on. i took another battery from my other phone and tried...First time he press..cannot on. I was like.. *Nonono it will work it will work..dont u dare doubt!* he tried..for the 3rd time.. AND IT ON! IT ON!!!!!!!!!!!! =DDDDDDDDDDD! i immediately took the phone..waited impatiently..for everything to load.. STRAIGHT AWAY WENT TO MY INBOX! ......................................... EVERYTHING WAS STILL THERE! IT WAS ALL THERE! =DDDDDDDDDDDDD =') u have NO IDEA how happy my heart was.. u have no ideaaaa! and guess what happened next? a sms came in.. and the sms ringtone (only exception) that i assigned was still assigned! it didnt change to some nokia tune! NO WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! :D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!????! i was SO HAPPY! i couldn't stop saying.. God is able God is Able God is Able this is Unbelievable! God is Able with God ALL things are POSSIBLE! i ran to my lil bro.. HUGGED HIM SOOO TIGHT! untill he was suffocating.. ran down to my grandma who kept doubting.. Told Her everything! And told her how i prayed.. what i prayed..and how i believed! And i told her how Great My God truly Is. =) (she's not a christian) And she agreed with every single word i say.. and she said.. i agree.. it seemed impossible.. it makes no sense for ur phone to be immersed in water for 3 days and yet, still work perfectly fine! it really makes no sense..

i drove right away to the phone shop to buy a battery. i was SO HAPPY.. i even told the handphone shop dude the whole story! =P even the phone dude said it was impossible that any electronic item could survive 3 days, immersed in water and yet can still start and function perfectly normal!

Anyways, friends, what i really want to share with you today.. is this.
When u pray to God.. when You ask God for things.. when You ask God for help.. Never Doubt Him. Never doubt what he can do. HE IS GOD. He is SOO big.. bigger than our imagination! We've no idea.. what He can do. We often tend to underestimate his capabilities.. and we often forget that He is God ! If whatever we pray for is according to His will, it will happen. I dont know when.. i dont know how fast. But if it is according to His will? Dont give up on Him. Wait patiently. and dont you doubt even for a second.


Even if my phone couldn't start, I would still be contented and continue to Believe in God.
Friends, God has plans for us. Plans to prosper us, and not to harm us.
Sometimes, things happen. And sometimes, we've no idea why it happened. But it did.
We'd never know the plans that He has in store for us.
If my phone could start, PRAISE GOD! if my phone couldn't start, PRAISE GOD STILL!

Maybe if my phone couldn't start, it happened for a reason. whatever the reason is, i may or may not find out. but one thing is for sure.. I know.. that My God may let me stumble.. but i definitely know for a fact that he would never let me fall. I know that My God doesn't plan for bad things to happen to me. but i definitely know that he can take those bad things and turn in into something so great and so wonderful.. beyond my wildest imaginations.

Thats how Great My God is. =)

Our God never fails.
His Love never fails.. unlike love among Humans.

I'd like to end this entry with this very special song..

I have been listening to it non-stop. From the things i've went through in the past week.. This song really touched my heart and it really comforted me. alot... When i was singing this song at the Planetshakers concert.. i found myself in tears.. in pain.. hurt.. broken.. at the start of the song. But at the end of the song? I found myself smiling. =')

This has definitely been a blessing to me.
and i hope it would be a blessing to you as well.

I just thought i should really share this testimony with all of you.
I've been sharing this very message over and over.. and now?
I have experienced it myself.

Our God never fails, His Love Never Fails. =)