Sunday, January 27, 2013


I always evaluate my life from time to time.. i think we all do.. no?

but anyways.. ever since i was young, whenever i saved up enough to buy a specific thing, i'd think, What's next?
And then i'll save up for tht and the cycle repeats itself.

I always ask myself a few questions and you know what?

I concluded that I am, at this very moment, Contented. =)
I have almost everything that I've ever wanted.. everything i chose to save up for, i have them now, in my hands. =) My dance life.. it is heading towards a direction i thought i could only dream of. But God has blessed me in so many ways to lead me to where i am today.. =')

I have God.. I have my family.. i have good friends..i have TRUE friends.. I'm on my way to getting a Law degree.. I have my own car that's in good condition.. I have a nice room.. a nice and comfy bed to sleep in..I am healthy..I have a job..

I am.. contented. =)

Even though i've yet to find that special someone to share my days with.. my ups and downs, the tears and smiles..

I still do believe that God's timing is always..ALWAYS..perfect.


Thursday, January 17, 2013


I am once again, racing with time.
I always try to keep my commitments to a certain limit..
But i always end up really busy even after limiting my commitments.

How does tht happen?!

But it does.. somehow..
Anyways, How am I? I'm good.
I've been falling sick quite a lot recently though..because of the weather being all PMS.
And i've had really bad insomnia issues for the pass month..
The kind where you're really tired.. you try to sleep at 12am.. but u end up rolling around, tossing and turning till 6am and before u knw it, ringggggggggggggggggg~ U're alarm clock rings and its time to get up. T_T yes, THAT bad.

and it's really frustrating because i'm soo tired.. but my brain just won't rest. =(
And so, i suffer 99 during class.. i dont even know how i drive sometimes. =.=!

all is well now... i think. :D
i've been able to fall asleep recently.. much easier.
gosh, who would've ever thought that the simple ability to fall asleep with such ease would've been such a blessing? Another lil thing in life that i've clearly been taking for granted.

Sides that!
Am currently working / studying.
Super broke this month due to z responsibilities and expenses u occur when growing up. hahaa. yess... car road tax insurance bla bla bla. Cost me a bomb this month... =/ This ish called growing up! Yes, i take care of my own car expenses. The pros and cons of having ur OWN car. 
I'm teaching dance, btw. =D
yeshh.. i teach on an ad hoc basis. =) coz i dont have the time to commit full time or on a weekly basis. So i teach for particular events or projects, etc. Those one off things tht would require like 10 sessions or smth. =) so yeah! this is gonna help me big time with my finances this month and for the next. =P

On another note, 
been thinking lately a lot about promises and words.
People tend to make promises they know, they might/would end up breaking.. but still, they make them anyway. People tend to say words, they don't mean.

I'm the kind of person, who takes both words and promises pretty seriously.
If i don't mean something, i rather not say it. EVEN IF, me not saying it, would hurt you. I would rather hurt someone with the truth, than with a lie.
But when i DO say something, i stick to it.. no matter what.
If i say i'll always be here for you, i will do so.. EVEN IF.. u start treating me like crap and all.

Many people, they're only THERE, for someone.. if tht someone in return, is there for them. 
They're only there for someone, if they want something from them. Be it love, benefits, etc.
They're only there for someone, if that person treats them good.

People change as time goes by.
I've experienced alot of  "i will be there for you.. always. " But most of the time, they dont actually mean it. Be it a friendship or as lovers.
Of course, i know, that sometimes circumstances arises that would cause them to break promises or go against their words... but i guess recently i've been realizing even more how ...

TOO OFTEN..too often people say things they dont mean and make promises they wont keep.
They do it without any remorse. 
" Heh, What are words nowadays? They're just words! it's nothing! i'll just take them back lah! "

but oh nonono. Call me old school but, there IS power in the spoken word. It carries great weight. it does.. 

but ahh, who am i to control or decide how people should view promises and words?
Guess, everyone is different.

annddddd.. i have no time to continue.
Gotta run to see the aussie girl! =P

till next time!

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Faith. Courage. Risks.

Sometimes, in Life, we cannot always see what lies ahead. Sometimes, we get so caught up with the familiarity around us, we dare not take a next step. But I say, it's time we become comfortable with the unfamiliar for Life Begins at the End of our comfort zone. :)


Minutes to Hours.

Sometimes, in life, we'd meet people who would be either a blessing, or a lesson.
I believe that we would cross paths with different people at different stages of our lives for a reason.
Think deeper, look harder, and its there.
It all depends on whether or not u want to see it.
Whether u want to accept it and learn from it.

You made the minutes, feel like hours.
And I am surprised to see how much I've changed at your influence.
I believe that we crossed paths for 2 reasons.
U taught me 2 very valuable lessons in Life.

And sometimes, the best thing to do, Is the hardest.
But we'd have to do it anyways because we know, that it is the right thing to do.
I know, that this is the right thing to do.


Thursday, January 10, 2013

There's More to Life Than Being Happy - The Atlantic

There's More to Life Than Being Happy - The Atlantic

Had a good read on this article...

"If there is meaning in life at all," Frankl wrote, "then there must be meaning in suffering."

 "Being human always points, and is directed, to something or someone, other than oneself -- be it a meaning to fulfill or another human being to encounter. The more one forgets himself -- by giving himself to a cause to serve or another person to love -- the more human he is."

The pursuit of meaning is what makes human beings uniquely human. By putting aside our selfish interests to serve someone or something larger than ourselves -- by devoting our lives to "giving" rather than "taking" -- we are not only expressing our fundamental humanity, but are also acknowledging that that there is more to the good life than the pursuit of simple happiness.


It's pretty lengthy, but if you have the time, Give it a read. =)

Monday, January 07, 2013

Lessons in Life. =)

Regina Brett, 90 yrs of age,  shared a column about 42 lessons Life taught her.
These are the few that I would like to be reminded of, now and in the future. =)
Hope it helps you like how it helped me. =))
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short – enjoy it..

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will. 

6. You don't have to win every argument. Stay true to yourself.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

10. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

13. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it...

15. Get rid of anything that isn't useful. Clutter weighs you down in many ways.

16. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

17. It's never too late to be happy. But it’s all up to you and no one else.

18. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

19. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

23. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

24. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

25. Always choose life. 

27. What other people think of you is none of your business. 

28. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

29. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

31. Believe in miracles.

32. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

34. Your children get only one childhood.

35. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

36. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

37. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

38. Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have not what you need.

39. The best is yet to come...

40. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

42. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

Friday, January 04, 2013



Before the year ended, i was pretty emotional.
Emotional as to the state of the relationships tht i currently had with the people in my life.
They weren't bad. But they weren't good either. They were okay.
And it saddens me to see how good.. became something tht was just merely Okay.

"At least they're still okay..just accept it..."

I don't want to. I wont settle for just, mere, Okay.
I guess.. it was due to me being so busy..too busy to catch up with everyone.
I was too busy for myself, actually. AND. too busy for God.
What more the people around me?
and prolly also coz some of them were too busy for me as well.

I basically felt pretty crappy.
I felt like a loner.
Alot of people and friends on the surface but empty and alone inside.
That was how i was feeling.. hmm. Coz i felt i generally had 'okay' relationships with EVERYONE.
Literally, EVERYONE. But i once used to have really good and precious relationships with these people.
I wanted it to go back to Good. I didn't want to settle for okay.

So anyways! yes, theres a happy ending to this sad entry. lolol~
I've been trying my utmost best to get back tht 'closeness' that i once used to have with these people.
And it has been going rather well.. =)

U see, no matter how close you are with someone.. no matter how effortless it may feel sometimes, no friendships or relationships.. NONE.. can survive without any effort being put into from both sides. Yes, it takes two to tango. So yeah, i really treasure these relationships i have with people.. i really do.. and whenever something goes wrong with regards to this, it can bring me down pretty easily.

But yeah!
I chose to do something about it and lookie lookie.. =)
Anyways, classes are resuming tmr. can't believe how fast time is flying. Before you know it, it's gonna be suffer period for me again. 129 days left till my exams.

"Wow , thts still quite far away.. "

What nonsense. Have u tried studying Law?
but yes. *seriously*
No time to play no time no time!
And i'm excited to put up more videos of benroy and i , since he's like.. a total bummer right now.. free from spm and stuffs.

Share with you a resolution of mine, I shall.

To sleep by 12am everyday.
yes. *omgosh big change for cykm* - totally.
but i'm trying to stick to it so! hee.
we'll see.

Here's to a healthier and better lifestyle for 2013! :D