Mixed Up Feelings.

Hey.. yeah.. =(

im currently having mixed up feelings..

Im glad im busy with jobs so tht i can earn money..

at the same time wish i was free-er to meet up with friends tht have asked me out ages ago..at least before class resume.. my classes punya timing super off lorh.. sighs..

sides tht.. ITS THT FEELING AGAIN.!!!

only my Twin noes what tht feeling is about..

and how it feels.. but she's in Hong Kong now..

hope she's having fun! BUT I MISS HER LAH! =(

anddddddddd....... i dunno larh..

its that point of the time when you are just mixed up inside lah...

And our meeting yday ws kinda disappointing.

sighs. =( its likee.. i really dunno wht to say to you anymore?

maybe coz of the way you talk i guess..

became so rude? but after tht on the way back u were finee..

u toned down. but during dinner was just.. =(

jhdgasfj;lekjfiowjfoijwfejiweopifjwejflkdf'asld...

yeah.. like tht. whts inside.. like i wanna explain..

but so mixed up.. it becomes like..ahsbdalkjdlajdlajd;aksd...

WOOOHOOOO.

another meaningless pointless entry. Bahhh.

2 Days to go.

Nyeh.

3 days till A New year! =)

Hey hey guys!

Christmas has passed and i cant believe tht im still so occupied and busy... =S

yup yup, am still teaching dance in USJ12. travelling there is the part i really dislike..

but i guess its alright since my transport cost are covered..

tho..i reli wish the ktm was more efficient.. T_T

it takes me 1 hour and a half just to get to Subang.. @_@

BUT NVM! continue this..

and very soon! hopefully after CNY..

I'll be able to earn enough to earn myself a laptop of my own.

Im only aiming at 1K plus one.. but can use, can edy la. =D

Many people will start judging the fact tht i wanna get myself a laptop..

I know so.

But i have my reasons.

will blog again soon when i have the chance to use the com!

Have a great New Year's Eve / New year!

xoxo.!

5 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS.!

HELLOOOOO!

whoaaa has time been flying!!! i cant believe that AFC's finally done with all performances already! besides being busy with outreaches, been busy with work! hahaha yesssshh.. tho the jobs tht i have lately are all teachin n choreographing dances for companies..=)

yep! its so cool to be able to do what i love and earn some cash at the same time. hahaa its like a bonus! =P yesterday i had to teach THE TWIST! to a P-ramlee song called Bunyi Gitar. hahaha goshhh! when i first heard the song i was like .. O.O wow? LOL. lately all the dances i had to choreo to were completely out of my comfort zone.. not hip hop no. but alot of weird old songs.. and a new song.. "Nobody" by wonder girls. yyessss i noeeee! i never saw myself teaching any dance to tht song.. hahahaa.. i used to be annoyed with it even. Anyways! abt the P-ramlee one.. its was yday.. and they were taking a video shoot.. it was for Head & Shoulders. and so i thought everyone this and tht and all.. and suddenly i also got pulled in the video shooting. hahaha.. and maaaaan.. u noe wht happened? when we saw wht the video man had taken.. i was suprised to see tht at first he showed the whole picture of everyone and then zoomed into me till the end of the song. i was like OMGOSH WHY?!!!

felt bad leh.. =S

So yeah we were dancing with wigsss and shades.. it was fun .! =)

then at night we had our last performance at Subang Parade..

and tht was the end of AFC's performances for 2010!

recently.. alot of thoughts have been running thru my mind..

so many tht i just wanna blog em all out.. but u noe how..

we just tend to forget when we finally have the chance to blog. haha..

anywayssss! im like.. SOOOO BROKE WEIH!

coz of all the christmas prezzies..

but nvm. its worth it when i get to make so many ppl happy. =D

OHHH YEAAAAAH!

i've also managed to meet up with Kaw!

one of my close friends from JB..

havent seen him for a year! the last time wasnt counted..

coz he saw me when i was performing on stage in Timesquare..

but had to leave right after..so didnt get to talk.. =(

but yeah! i had a really great time.. =)

tho theres still tonnes of people whom i owe them outings! =S

Like aaron ong who came back from aussie..

apple! who suddenly gave me shocking news.. =(

marilyn whom i've not seen in ages..

and chua chi wing who never asked me go out! pfft!

havent even sat in his car before.. =(

and boon sin! when shall we meet?!

i also really wanna go back to JB for a few days..

to see my nephewww!!! and sister..

and Eunice Tan! and Karyn Ong! bryan yong!

and so many other people in JB!

but money is holding me back..

also! me college peeps! hahaha.. we agreed to go out one day during our break..

sides tht, now tht im done with the other company..

i've one more company left.. Tohtonku.

they're the ones who produces Follow Me shampoos and stuffs..

And those Nutox facial products and many more..

i've to teach them dance for a competition/dinner.

guess wht the songs are? WO YAO NI DE AI, CHA SHA BAO and Nobody.

wo yao ni de ai is the one tht goes..

wo yaoooo~ wo yaoo ni~~~ wo yaaao ni de ai~!

YEAH. tht one.. and omgosh cha sha bao?! ahhh..

yessss yessss hahahhaha super old songs..

but it'll fun as well i guess.. =)

so even during this week before christmas.. i'd be busy teaching dances and all.. next week also before new year.. tho there are certain days when im not teaching..

i've still not finish my choreography yet! =S gotta finish everything by today weih. pressureeeeeee! =SSSSS! so i shall stop blogging now. hahahaa.. i'll try to upload some pictures! will try! =)

xoxo.!

First Vlog? =)

Hello people! been busy! didn't have the time to upload pictures here or to blog! so i just decided to do a vlog. =D my first ever vlog. hahaa.. anyways, hope you dont mind the messy hair,weird voice,bad lighting and sleepy/sick face.. =P recorded this with my handphone. =P not bad lah for a handphone. hehe. i didnt bother to go beautify myself. hahahaa.. i ws abt to sleep after i showered and sudd decide to do this vlog. =P

10th December.

xoxo.!

Time for Outreaches again! =)

Hey guys! sorry for being Missing in action lately!

Classes started and A2 is not a semester where u can play around.

well, actually.. u can. but not something i wanna do..

So anyways.. BESIDES studying..

i've been working AND dancing as well! yes i know..

classes started but yes im still working on certain days..

ie: class is at 3pm. i work from 9am till 2pm and then ciao straight for class.

dont worry. i'll only be doing this on and off..

wont be a permanent thing. i know i know i should concentrate on studies..

i am. just certain days when they need ppl only i'll work.

anywaysssss!

AFC had our first outreach yesterday at TROPICANA CITY MALL. and tomorrow, 7th dec will be our second outreach. it'll also be at TCM, 3pm! so do come by if you're somewhere nearby, or u just wanna support. hehe. =D the first outreach went quite alright.. but it could've been btr! so yeah..

hope tomorrow we'll do better..=D and i've fallen sick! sore throat flu slight fever and cough. But i belive that by tomorrow i'll be much better! =) and also.. i've been getting alot of new stuffs. heheee.. =DD like the turqoise hoodie up there? its my late birthday prezzie from joe.. =) also sheryl lent me her camera again. haha. just like tht start of the year. i also got a bagpack from sheryl.. =) i finally found heels that fit my feet! and it ws only 20rm. dont u just love sales?! LOL. not tht i shop alot anyways. just so happy i finally found heels tht fit my feet perfectly. and its sooo comfortable! =))))

wht else? hmm.. cant think of anything at the moment. but i guess im alright really tho im without a camera or a wallet. ah yes! talking about a wallet. i bought those.. rm4 net-ish zipped purse/wallet? no idea. but yeah. its good. =D got myself a new bottle. guess its colour? DUH RIGHT? hahaha.. purple bottle again. =D im kinda back on track again. =) its good. and i've been using my Nokia X2 as my camera and video camera recently.. ALOT. i kinda like using my phone as my camera now.. convenient and the quality really isn't tht bad ! =)) im actually considering of getting myself a video cam instead of a camera when im better off, this time round. but FIRST. I really needa get myself a laptop. so yup yup. save save save saveeeeeee.

aite. enough blogging for the night.gotta get myself loads of rest to be pumped up for tomorrow's outreach! and heres our schedule or outreaches!

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7th December.

Tropicana City Mall - 3pm

11th December.

Atria (Damansara Jaya) - 2pm
Sunway Pyramid - 6pm

Selayang Mall - 8pm

12th December.

ioi mall (puchong) - 2pm

Sunway Pyramid - 6pm

18th December.

Sunway Giza - 1.30pm

ioi Boulevard - 8.30pm

19th December.

Subang Parade - 8.30pm

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So yup! do drop by or come support if you're free! =)

See you guys~!

xoxo.!

Hey!

HELLO PEOPLE!

whoa! i didn't realize tht i've not blogged for almost a whole month already! i've just been REAAAALLLLYYYY BUSY! this pass few weeks! right after exams ended.. my friend cherlyn helped rachel and a few of us get some part time jobs and i've been working eversince then! yes... been working.. AND also been allocating time for dance pracs for AFC'S coming outreaches in the shopping malls for the christmas month! DECEMBER! YES! december is tmr and today's the last day of november.. boy does time flies!

SO yes. been real busy dancing and working. and now..

dancing working AND studying! yes study study study!

A2 began today! yeah.. only 2 weeks break even after a major exam! but college doesn't want us to waste time so its for our own good i guess.. =)

besides working and dancing.. dance pracs..

there were two events last weekend!

My studio's dance concert/showcase! on the 20th..

AND PROM! yes! prom was the very next day.. 21st.

I HAD TONNES OF FUN!

AND I TOOK TONNES OF PICTURES!

all thanks to Sheryl dear for lending me her cam cam again.. =)

i shall upload pictures.. some of em soon!

been taking crazy alot of pictures with my HP recently as well.. hehe..

alrighty! just a quick update! coz business class tmr..

at 9am and i'm still up! ahhh..~! =P

Nights/Mornings!

xoxo.!

PS: i've finally bought myself a handphone for my digi sim card. so please sms me to let me know your number k! my digi number is still the same..! and i bought a cheap handphone lahhh.. =) ishh everyone thought i bought some expensive phone and all.. i bought a usable one and im contented with it. =P =) SMS ME UR NUMBERS! =D thx!

Dear..

Kah May,

I know you are angry, i know you are upset, i know you are frustrated,fed up and tired. The thought of just having to start all over again is already tiring enough. But i guess, in the end, life on earth is only momentary. All these things that you have on earth will be stripped away from you in the end anyways. What you have on earth is great. But whats in store for you in heaven is even greater. I also know that you lost things that you can never get back. But at least u had it for a period of time. Eventually, it would have goteen rusty/spoilt/become old/ugly/not usable. etc. One way or another, you were gonna lose it anyway. Its just a matter of time. I guess, what would help now is that for the pics you lost, just take it as those pictures never existed anyways. I know that even if people tell you that you can take new ones, those pictures you lost could never be replaced. but i guess that is just Life. Sometimes in life, you'll just lose something or someone that can never be replaced.And like your E63, man.. you worked and taught dance to earn that phone man.It wasn't easy, but i guess its no harm doing it again. If you could have gotten tht phone by working for it and earning it,whats stopping you from doing it again? Your camera.. aiks.. thats like the most sam tong one among whtever electronic stuffs tht u lost. But oh wells..step by step again lorh.. it was a good camera eyh? Haihhs... things come and go. People as well. so like last time huh? You're gonna get back everything but this time, even BETTER. And the Ipod? its okay. you have a phone that can play music so its ok i guess. tho i know! i know.. that purple ipod was just so pwetty.. =( Well, all these things that you lost, you were fine and well and okay and living life like normal before you even had them. So.. i guess you should be just fine living without em again. Yeah? ... Yes i know, especially you're super sister keychain that Nick bought for you from USA,the Kennedy Space Centre. You really loved and treasured it so much. But like Nick said the night before you both got robbed,

Nick: "You dont deserve this Super sister lahh.."
You: EH! wht u mean?! Hmmph!
Nick: "You should have super 999 sister instead! =) "

so i guess, you losing it means you REALLY DO DESERVE super 999 sister! lol.. =) You're wallet.. it was tearing and was becoming worn out. you had to replace it sooner or later. and those things in your wallet like the souvenirs from the aussies and your baby photo. Yes i know, people may laugh when they hear about you being sad over losing your octopus,your ducky,your frog string,your baby photo.. all these things,for some, they may think.. Aiyaaah! then they start laughing coz its small stuffs and all. But we both know how much and even more these lil things mean to you than the E63 you lost or the ipod that you lost. Cause thats just you, you're a very sentimental person. well, all i can say is that at least you have a memory of it and how it looks like. and we all know how good your memory is. =P you can even rmb conversations that you had with friends years ago! you can even rmb what they we're wearing! Crazieee... =P. So yeah. At least.. AT LEAST.. you know these things will still be with you in your mind and heart forever. Like what Aaron.O told you.. He has never seen a person so strong,like You. And that they may steal you're things and valuables and treasured stuffs.. but they can never steal Your Strong Spirit and Determination away from You! And that is yours to keep for Life. So press on dear girl, for you know you have many friends and family by your side that are ever ready to help you out and support you all the way. And most importantly, you have God.

It is time to close this chapter, and to move on to the next one.
Ale!

With Love,
Me.

BAM.!

Super Sister.

Purple is My Colour.

Got Robbed. Again.

yes. i got robbed.. for the SECOND time this year. I lost everything.. AGAIN. but this time, i cried so badly. Though i lost more in the beginning of the year when i got robbed, i did not shed a tear.

but this time..

i cried. so badly.

its nt so much abt the things i lost.

and NEWS TRAVELS REAL FAST HUH? O.o

anyways, everyone keeps telling me..

"those are material stuffs.. at least you are okay."

I know. i know i know i know i knowwww...

but i'd appreciate it if everyone could stop reminding me of wht i already know.

i appreciate your care and everything.. i really do.

but its just that.. this time i cried so badly coz of 3 things.

1. After i got rob for the first time and lost the most in the hse.. i told myself that im gonna get back everything i lost slowly.. but surely.. and this time, even better. i was almost there. i was half way through.. but ITS JUST SO FRUSTRATING WHEN UR HALFWAY THERE AND YOU GET PUSHED BACK TO THE START. AT SQUARE ONE. ALL OVER AGAIN.

i just feel so frustrated. so fed up. so tired. ='(

2. It wasn't my car that got smashed, but my friend's. I KNOW. everyone keep telling me that its not my fault. BUT IT IS PARTIALLY MY FAULT. for being so stupid. and careless. for not thinking twice. if i hadn't tumpang my stuffs in her car, theres a high possibility that her car wouldn't have gotten smashed. i feel damn bad okay. and I KNOW. learn from my mistakes. i knowwwwwww.. but i just feel so damn bad kay.

3. There were things that i lost that were things i can never get back even if i had all the money in the world. Special things from special people that means alot to me. things that i treasured ALOT. things that meant ALOT to me. Things tht i looked at and tht made me smile. Memories tht i can never get back even if i wanted to buy em back.

I know tht you'd tell me tht i can create new ones.

But you get me dont you?

you get the feeling of losing something you can never get back.

and for me, these memories tht these things tht i lost means a whole lot to me. if you know me well enough. you'd understand how super sad i feel. how pain my heart feels.

i've felt tht twice thrice this year. and its really killing me inside.

it really makes me so so very sad. sighs...

its gonna take me a while to recover.. AGAIN.

Im okay. So dont worry.

thanks for all your care and concern.

it means alot to me. But i hope.. after reading this..

you'd understand where im coming from.

and atm, my family isn't doing very well either.

plus, today's my mum's birthday.

and Yes, i've not told her anything. I ate and celebrated dinner with her during her break just now. and i just dont wanna spoil her special day. and it breaks my heart to have to break the news to her in a few more minutes when she gets home.

why? ask me personally and i'd tell you.

anyways.

please do message me your contacts if you think u know me and i had ur contact number yeah?

thanks alot yeah.

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Thanks Alot Andrea,Qian,Andrea's friend and Nick.

for being there today.. for helping me n nick out..

Nick, im sorry that we had to get robbed together. =( Haihs.. but i wont forget today either. We ran Terry Fox Run together. and if this hadn't happen, it'd be an awesome day. I had a good time. 1437

Andrea, im sorry that ur car got smashed. =( pls let me noe. im serious.

Qian, thanks for sending me home and just being there..

Andrea's Friend and qian and andrea, thanks for treating me and nick!

Thanks. Everyone else who gave me a hug and made me cry even more.. thanks for caring.

i really appreciate all.

and most of all.. Thank You Lord for keeping us all safe.

Sigh.

Here we go again.

Bits and Pieces Of My August. =)

Matt's first day in Malaysia 2010! yep yep! My friend here, Matthew John Waters from Aussie came to visit! first met him when a whole bunch of the mesmurdie highschool came to visit. =) Jann picked him up in 1utama. and we went to welcome him. =D

While he was here, we just hung out alot. hahaha.. and as usual, VISITING ALMOST EVERYWHERE!

and i FINALLY tried the footfish spa for the first time! =P

Damn ticklish lorh! hahahaha... but it was a great experience. i actually took a video. haha.. gosh, dont u just love videos even more? i know i do. =)

Central Market. =)

And heres my twin.. =)

Haha.. Kimberley Ong Jing Ling.

Moments with your bestfriend is ALWAYS precious. =)

for me, at least. :)

This was one of our study moments together at centrepoint. =D haha. was this the day u appeared in newspaper as well? cant rmb! hahahaha.. we went to centrepoint and then back to curve so many times before! =P

Spending break time with mummy. =)

its been a while! =P

=D hahahahaa...

AND I GOT HONEYYYYYYYY! AUSTRALIAN HONEY FROM AUSTRALIA ITSELF! =D

hahaa yep! i know i know u can get this here in the stores. but it is different really when it ws actually brought here ALL THE WAY from aussie. =) its the thought tht counts! hahaha..

See the amount of plastic he used to wrap the honey? hahahaha..

thanks tonnes matt! =)

and it was tht one sunday where things were so complicated! ahaha.. had to settle alot of things tht day. BUT. glad i managed to settle things. and the day ended with everyone satisfied and happy. =)

yep! baseball at 1utama! =))

steady k! i managed to play even when i ws wearing a skirt and heels! =P

posers! hahahaha..

=P

hahaha.. looking back at these pictures really puts a smile on my face.. =)

now you know why i LOVEEEEE taking pictures so much?! haha..

=D

and i won tickets from HITZ. to watch the premiere of THE EXPENDABLES.

watched the premier at Sunway Pyramid.. =)

along with Jov and JJ! =)

Wasn't a fan of the movie, but definitely loved the company.. =)

The last day Matt was in Msia before he went to visit other parts of Asia!

also the day i bought me and Kim our teddies!

aren't they just SHO ADORABLE?! hahahaha...

LOL.

Kim's Birthday pressie and.. a pressie for myself as well? =P

YESH. i was reaallyyyy happy i bought em! hahaha..

and matt got influenced to liking purple too! NYAHAHAHAHA! =P

Carls junior's fries are tasty! =D tho wendy's can totally compete with em. hahaa. they're both rather alike.

DINNER!

And no, he didnt eat anything spicy! it ws just.. sweet n sour if i recall correctly. hahahaa..

Jan and Qian =)

and and and i realized smth! matt's eyes has like.. this hole when he closes his eyes! hahaa.. d'you see it?!

=) we were waiting for time to pass. hahahaa..

we then attended a fashion show tht jan's friend invited us to at THE LIBRARY in Midvalley. =)

This is what matt looks like from my angle. HAHAHA. he's just tall.

aint me! =P

and how i look from matt's angle. LOL.

Shoe Fashion Show. =D

tho i didnt really enjoy it.

but it WAS my FIRST time attending any fashion show.

coz the fashion show ws kinda .. i dunno. we just didnt get to really spend time with matt, so after the fashion show thingy we went to PJ HILLS =)

Inhwan! a friend from Korea.

this was like.. a Friday before he left on a Sunday to go back to Korea. :(

But it was good really! had alot of fun! and we watched dispicable me! hahahahahahahaa... THE SMALL GIRL SUPER CUTE LORH! always puppy face-ing! and keep making me go "Awwwwwww....!" and i totally Owned him in DAYTONA. ;) hehehee..which cost him to buy me popcorn. =P

Yep! at Midvalley, again. hahahaa..

It was a great hang out. too bad we couldn't have more of em after tht friday.

And on sunday!

He gave me this! hahahaha.. its JAPANESE Mochii, Made in TAIWAN, but he bought it in HONG KONG! hahahaha.. 3 countries. Hmmmmmm... =P

hahahaha.. super lil captions.

why? IM SUPER ZOMBIE-FIED right nw!

hahahahaa.. after blogging my previous entry i started uploading all these pictures. xD and guess wht time isit now? ITS 4.16AM! hahahaa.. crazieee..!

time ALWAYS fly when i blog.

tsk tsk tsk. =P

hahaha .. so yesh..!

this was my August. excluding Kim and Karyn's Birthday suprise!

i took, TONNES. of pictures. hahahaa..

i should really learn how to blog only certain pictures huh?

i ALWAYS end up uploading almost .. ALMOST all the pictures i took! =P

BUT I DID TRY!

i did try blogging.. in a style where one event, theres only like 3 pictures or smth. BUT I JUST CANT! hahahahahaa... im bad at choosing the BEST top pictures. =P

why?!

coz i love all of them pictures!

hahaha.. for me, every picture, is different in its own ways. altho, it may seem the same to you. hahaha.. AND WHOAAAAAA.

my mum just came out from her room to ask me to go to bed. O.O she's having trouble sleeping coz i made coffee for her earlier on. =S (she asked me to make for her)

hahaha. okokok! before she comes out again. =P

GOOD MORNING PEOPLE!

AND HAPPY DEEPAVALI! =D=D=D

PS: i really think deepavali this year was like more happening than merdeka lorh! hahahaha .. the number of fireworks itself is proof. ;)

xoxo.!