Today Was A Fairytaleeeeeeee

Hahahaa.. i dont even like the song..! xD

random title. =P

Anyways.

i loved today.

=))))))

Love You Froggieeeeeee!!!!

=))))))

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Taking Chances,Taking Risks.

Life is all about taking chances and taking risks..

so that we can open opportunities for ourselves..

but of course.. when we take them risk, we need to becareful..

because sadly.. this world is filled with cunning..mean..cruel humans.

so these people are the ones we should stay away from..

but then again, you'll never know for sure ..

wht kind of person he or she is in the start right?

so there is where we take risks..

whtever we do may or may not benefit us..

in fact.. it can even harm us..

but what is life without taking risks?

If we should ever fall..from the risks we took..

all we can do is to learn from our mistakes..

and take precaution in future..

Because we can never grow or excell in life..

if we are always scared of taking risks..

scared of this.. of tht and everything..

might as well just lock urself in ur room..

and waste away.. seriously..

without noticing it..

we actually take risks every single day..

choosing wht food to eat and where..

thats a risk. who knows u might get food poisoning n die?

lol. or choosing which school or college to study in?

thats a risk as well. who knows how good the lecturers are?

or their dark secrets tht nobody know of?

or their evil schemes..or maybe they may just shut down suddenly..

and run away wit ur money? all those are risk..

almost everything in life involves risk..seriously..

so yeah..

whts life without taking chances and taking risks?

sometimes we have to be allowed to make our own decisions..

yes, maybe we are complete plain dummies!

but its then and there that we'll learn and slowly..

become geniuses. =) we may hurt. we may fall..

we may be cheated.. and all..

yes .. those are things we cannot control..

we can prevent.. but not always..

Sometimes people just have to learn the hard way..

Sometimes those are the best and most effective way for them to learn smth.

Sometimes we just have to let go..

No matter how much we love them..

coz we need to let them learn how to live their life..

hmmm...

talking about life..

sometimes people complain their life is too boring..

some complain their life is too complicated..

the truth is.. humans will never be content with their life..

or whtever they achieve or have in life..

again.. Thats Human Nature.

so wht should we do..?

truth is.. i really dunno..

im still trying to figure out tht question myself.. =/

Sighs. but ultimately..

life still goes on.

and everyday is a gift from God.

too bad humans take tht for granted without noticing it..

they're so sure and confident that they will wake up from their sleep the next morning like how they always do.. They're so sure that they can see their mother father brother sister best friend bf gf wife husband the next morning.. they take life for granted..

but always remember.. God has the power and authority to take away any of our lives anytime in the world. i've been distracted by all the happenings recently that i forgot that Everyday is a Gift from God and how precious it is.

Guess sometimes we tend to forget..

But most importantly..

we Remember again..

and try to apply it in our everyday lives again..

To start again..

to get up and stand up again..

Cherish and treasure every single second people.

You too! miss celine yap kah may!

- Time Waits For No Man -

Wei Shi Mou?

Life.. filled with suprises whether good or bad..
they'll just come crashing without u knowing..

wonder sometimes tho..
why do almost all good things come to an end?

wonder why most of them dont last.. =(

imissthosemoments.whatashameitdidn'tlast.

or so i think ..?

hmmm..
i've been really neutral these few days.. i dunno wht to feel.. actually i feel nothing.. lol.. but sometimes i do have a heavy heart.. as if its filled with water..and it can pour any moment.. any second...

urgh.stupid girl...

imissme.
Zzz...
Goodnightt.

Hope tmr can change everything.

*crosses fingers*

When You Feel Nothing At All..?

Hello people. yes yes. i can finally go online without having to go to a cc. yesh! finally have internet access again.. =)

so yesh.. i have finally got my results..for SPM.. suprisingly a great amount of people who i havent told already know my results.. O.O all thanks to my sister that announced it on facebook. =.= lolll.. but anyhoo..

i got..

7As and 3B+s!

yup yup! all Glory to God! =)
although i did not manage to achieve my target ..
which was at least 8As.. but its alright.. =)
I am happy and content with my results.. =)

Congratulations to all my SPM-ER friends !!!
Whatever ur results are.. we have run the race..
and we have finally reached that finish line! =)
So be proud of yourself and be happy with whatever you got.
if you are disappointed with yourself.. DONT!
Take it as a reason for you to work harder..
and to achieve better it your future examinatons!
JIA YOU JIA YOU!!! ^^

Sides that right.. i had my driving test on the 12th of March..
I got 19/20 for on the road.
but i failed because of the hill.. Zzzz..
and i wasn't scared about the hill,parking or 3 point turn at all.
instead i was scared of the on the road test.
my first test was the hill.. and i failed..
i noe this may sound cliche.. but yes.. i believe i failed because of the clutch prob..
the car i used had a stupid clutch.. seriously..
so i went up the hill.. n stop perfectly on the yellow line like i always do..
cz i love doing the hill.. and when the JPJ asked me to go down..
i balanced the clutch and the accelerator and all ..
yes my car did jerk forward and the clutch was engaged..
i even lift the clutch till the whole car was shaking edy..
so i put down the handbrake..
and the car slide down instead of moving forward..
i accelerated untill the max.. bt it still slide down further..
so to prevent me from banging other cars behind i brake and pulled the handbrake.
imeadiately the guy said.. HABIS! and with the hand language..
saying.. "YOUR OUT"! thats it! i felt so crappy..
i seriously did.. sighs.. then he asked me to go do on the road..
the car i used for on the road was awesome!!!!!!!
if i had tht car the hill i would have totally pass!
this i am brave enough to say!.. aihs..
my examiner for the on the road test was nice..
he din bribe me.. din give the mengada attitude.
instead he was friendly and chat with me along the test..
i didn't even feel like i was having a test.
felt like i was taking a stroll with a friend.. haha.. =)
he was a nice JPJ. =D then on the road also got hill..
and i did perfectly well.. even the JPJ said..
"you drive really well.. i really think it was a technical problem"
sighs.. =( so yeah.. i told Dad why i failed.. and he said..
"If its a technical prob u shud complain! its nt ur fault!"
so we made a u-turn back to the driving school..
dad complaint.. the guy dun believe..
so happen another girl tht used the same car as i did..
over heard wht we were saying..she also had the same problem..
so the guy said.."Fine, we'll c other people use the same car.. if they can use then its not the cars problem but the driver.." fortunately.. the car i used was different from the other cars.. coz the side mirrors were red.. and it was the only car tht was like that..so it was easy to spot.. so we watched.. me..the girl.. dad and the guy..the car went up the hill.. and when the JPJ ask the car to go down the hill.. the EXACT SAME THING HAPPENED! the car slided down. and just like tht.. another poor poor driver failed. Zzz. stupid car..

then my dad said.. "there u go! u saw it with ur own eyes! wht more proof do u wan?" then the guy said.. Ahhh.. anyway its ur daughter's fault she didn't complain there and then when she had the chance.. it has passed now.. then they tested the clutch.. and yes the clutch really got problem one lorh! =( then i observed.. everytime tht car wanted to go down the hill it would totally slide down. sighs. then on my paper they write another car plate number. tht plate no. wasnt the car we used. in fact! the car plate number tht they wrote wasn't even being used and was parked at the side!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... what a day wht a day.. =( then they said.. "Ur daughter fault la.. we assign tht car to her but she didn't use it.." WALAO EHHHH...?! where got ppl assign car to every candidate one???! really really dumb i tell you.. argh! =(

so in the end.. i still have to resit for my driving test but only for the hill parking and 3 point turn coz i already pass my on the road test. so yeah.. rm150 gone.. just like tht.. sniffx sniffx... T_T oh well. thats life. i resiting on 5th of April! just you wait humans! imma go kick some ass! rawrrr! i make sure next time if i dun like the car i'll make sure they give me another one.. if not imma start a drama and hon super alot untill they give me another car. xDDDDDDDDD! I aint gonna fail again coz of a stupid dupid car! rawrrr!!! mark my worddddssss!

so yes tht is about my driving test.
anyways my friday was terrible.
i had the worse friday ever.
ahh.. dun even wanna talk about it..
i just had a super terrible 12th of March..
From morning.. till night..
so many things happened in a day.. aihs..

then on Saturday i went to Malacca with andrea,qian,janning,tsu ann,steven n benson. had a great day despite the many of times it rained and we got soaked and then blow dry by the wind.. tht made me feel super cold.. =/ but yes it was a great day.. came back on the same day. =D i obviously took a gazillion pictures again.. xDDD yesh yesh!

Sheryl oh sheryl! really lerh..
if you didn't lend me your camera i wouldn't have been able to take all these beee--aaaa---uuu---tiii---fulll pictureessss!!! =) *hugs tight tight!*

i just uploaded Kuala terengganu pictures to facebook..
still have Malacca! but that will have to wait!
hahaa.. if not imma go bonkers.. =P
staring at the computer screen the whole evening.. xD

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I went to the Facon Education Fair today with Daddy at KLCC.
Looked everywhere for good Law schools but in the end..
we still ended up at Brickfields Asia College..
theres no doubt that BAC would be the best choice..
seriously.. =) so yeah man! i manage to see my twiinnnn!!!!
=) I havent seen u in ages Miss Kimberley Ong!!
was so nicee seeing u again today!
hahaa.. and yeah after dad bargained and talked to the lecturer..
i finally finally registered myself to study in Brickfields Asia College..
to do LAW.. ! =) A-Levels first then LLB and CLP.
so yeah man! orientation starts on the 29th of March..
first class is on 5th of April! the same day i will be resiting my Driving test. =/
Maaaan.. gonna miss my first day of college. =(
But nvm! there are still many days ahead! hehee..
im excited really.. =) now that everything has been confirmed! =D

so yeah. thats all about me for now..
ahaha.. till next time. =)
xoxo.

11.03.2010

Nothing is and would ever ever Be Enough...................


always Remember that..

I, CELINE YAP KAH MAY

STUDY FOR NO ONE ELSE IN THIS WORLD

EXCEPT FOR

ME,MYSELF AND I.

Dont you ever have any wishful thinking anymore. coz thats just life. sometimes what should be.. isnt. So in the future.. as you start the next phase of your life.. learn from what you have experienced.. and never allow these kinda things to hurt you anymore.

Dont hope too much. nor expect too much.

You'll just end up being disappointed.
So learn. and Go.
Do the best you can. For Yourself.

When You Wish Upon A Star..

Hello.. am at Cc now.. alot has been going on with me..
was having a chaotic dramatic scene of my life.. and then.. i was really just.. happy.. and then now again.. im somewhere i dont want to be..

but thats just life i guess?
like a rollercoaster ride..

i Had such....... a "..." night yesterday. i really dont noe wht word to use to descride last night but it was definitely not the best night.. haihs..

ITS SAD.

how JEALOUSY. and ENVY. and HATE.. and ANGER..
can make two people argue.. and ignore each other..
I am one person.. i cannot please everyone..
i cannot show equal love to everyone..
and anyone..
you say i have changed.. or rather u say i have always loved A more than you.. but you damn right noe thats not true.. At ALL..

im really confused. one moment.. u are telling me to be like this and tht..
the next moment.. u are contridicting ur statement..
i am living the way u have taught me..
the things u have taught me..
but why is so that i have to choose and pick who i treat the way i treat etc..?
I have always been nice to A.. always..
Its just that A only treat me nice when A feels like it..
but im okay with that. i have learn to accept it..
i have forgiven.. and i have forgotten..
Isn't that what u have taught me?
isn't that wht the WORD teaches us all?
so why do u still keep grudges..?

shouldn't u be happy that i have learn how to forgive and forget?
isn't that a good thing?
then why get into an arguement with me about it..?
ur making me so very confuse.. =(

you know i love you so very very much..
but why would u rather get into an arguement with me..
because of jealousy and envy?! DONT LET IT GET TO YOU!
it makes me so sad.. everytime when u start to compare my love..
for others and for you..
I am just .. ONE.. person.. =( ..

Sighs.
conflicts. and dramas.. and all..

ANYWAYS. enough about all these super ridiculous things..

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About me. =)
well hmm.. results are coming out on the 11th!

so yeah, judgement day! haha..
on the 10th i got my last driving lesson..
then on 11th is results day!
and on the 12th i have my driving test! =/

really hope i do well!
for both results and my driving test! =)
cant wait to get my license! hahaha..
and i'll be futhering my studies by doing A Levels..
in Brickfields Asia College..
I'll be majoring in Law..
yup. Law..

anyways.. i've been dancing much too!..
i've got my own crew now and we're called..
PHILEO! =) phileo stands for Brother and sisterly LOVE!
i have practices every Saturday in a Studio in Cheras.. =)
am also doing personal coaching nw....
so i teach every wednesday night.. =)
yup! tho! i need to start going for more competitions!
coz tht was my goal.. to enter and be more exposed!
so maybe i'll be joining a KDU dance competition soon..
maybe. hahaha.. =P

so yeah. =) less than a month left till i start college..
wonder what i can do with it..
i cant go for trips with friends.. to genting.. beach or whtever..
guess things dun always happen as u plan..
oh well.. =(
hmm.. cant work.. too short.. of time..
dont wanna bum around for the remainings either!
such a waste.. =( we'll see. =)

i miss how i used to live everyday like it was my last day on earth..
=).. i miss that old me!..
and i wan her back in my life!
so starting today im gonna try my best..
to slowly get her back into my life.. =)

now now people, whats going to CC without gaming?!
nyahahahaha~! L4D ! i have missed jooo! =P

xoxo!

PS: Shawn beck was in this entry too! xD LOLOLOL! Ahahaha! hw random! =P

5.3.2010

Everyone, Please give a round of applause to Human Nature, for human nature is like the best and closest friend u could ever have but human nature is also like a sharp edged sword that could pierce your heart and hurt you so badly or stab u in the back without you knowing.Human Nature is something we are all familliar with. Well friends, today i wanna share with you about how Human Nature can be your worse enemy.

Human Nature.. Human Nature can destroy relationships.. the closest relationships u have. Human Nature is selfish. Human Nature thinks for itself and itself alone. Human Nature blinds you from the truth and the things u should noe or should do. Human Nature can make u treat complete strangers with the greatest gratitude and respect,Human Nature can make u love complete strangers with all your heart..filled with care, loyalty and trust. BUT. Human Nature blinds you from the people.. the people you SHOULD be loving the most. caring for the MOST. Being there for.. the MOST.. and most importantly.. Loving Unconditionally. Unconditional Love.. somethings very rare to be found in the midst of famillies nowadays.

OUR FAMILY.

Are the people we should be loving unconditionally.. the people, who we should be giving full respect to, the people who we should care and and treasure and appreciate the most.. the people who we should trust the most. the people who we should rely fully.. and look to when we're in problems.. or depression.. the people who we should show most kindness , generosity, sacrificial love.. without any conditions.. any terms and conditions.. without having debts involve..people who you should things for out of LOVE. willingly.. volunteerly but not because u HAVE to. but because u WANT to. Our family.. people.. wht does family mean to you? what does family mean to the world nowadays?

Materialistic things like money.. branded goods.. luxurious cars, pretty houses.. strangers.. complete strangers.. friends.. or bestest of friends. these things and people are overpowering the word.. FAMILY.. today. we may all deny it. we may all overlook this matter. but this.. this Nasty Human Nature.. is overtaking and overpowering our lives today. They not only pull us away from home.. but they make our FAITH grow smaller and smaller everyday without us noticing it.

What about our Faith?

how are you treating it? are you feeding it anything so that it could grow? or are you putting it aside? are you putting it on hold? I dunno about you, but it clearly seems that FAITH! is dying within US. DENY ALL YOU WANT. but i am admitting to it. its saddening. yes. its very disappointing to see a healthy tree that grew and grew and burn ever so strongly before.. but is now dying when it would've been.. could've been the biggest and strongest tree EVER.! why. why.. we all ask WHY dun we? then what should we do if we noe of problems like these arising? do we just let it be. and LIFE GOES ON like everyone would say. or would u run that extra mile to fix everything? like they say..

ITS EASIER SAID THAN DONE.

oh that is just bloomin true. dont you just hate the truth? hmm? dun cha?

I wonder how we can love and treat our friends so well.. filled with love and compassion but treat our own family members like crap. like domestic waste. like rubbish. like dust in the air. so invicible. so very.. not important. we only come to them when we have run out of options. when we have no where else to go. our family is like always.. and ALWAYS our last resort.
yes. i admit. seriously. they are.. MY last resort. i only go to them for help when i have ran out of options. i only go to them when theres no other possible way. i wonder why. but maybe i do noe why. maybe because i always had this thinking.. ahh nahh.. i dun wanna trouble them.. but wait a minute? u dun mind troubling ur friends? whoa there.. isn't it only normal if u dun wanna trouble ur friends but dont mind troubling ur friends? maybe coz i feel more comfortable asking my friends for help than asking my family for help. why is that so? maybe because there are just way too many terms and conditions. or maybe.. maybe because when u go to ur family.. sometimes they make u feel like ur a trouble.. ur an inconvinience to them. u are plain.. MAA FAAAN-NESS. Isn't that true? your friends would never ever make u feel tht way.. why? coz they wouldn't wanna hurt ur feelings.. but you see.. famillies nowadays JUST DONT CARE. YOU'RE FAMILY! U SHOULD UNDERSTAND. SO IF I TALK RUDELY TO YOU, YOU SHOULDN'T FEEL HURT COZ YOU'RE FAMILY. AND YOU SHOULD UNDERSTAND. oh right. so its okay ?? i'm getting confused here. who are the people we should love the most? who are the people we should treat the most respect with?

oh i just rmbered why we're all like this nowadays. its coz of EGO. yep. we dont want other people to think badly of us. we dont care if our family thinks that way of us.. coz it just doesn't matter. but what outsiders think and the way they judge us matters the MOST. isnt that true friends? we'd do all kinds of things to please others. even be someone we're not when we're outside there just to KISS ASS. so thats when the saying comes in that we're ourselves completely when we are with familyyyy.. yes yes yesssh. coz family knows us best. family knows our good and bad sides. they know.. our deepest and darkest secret..they know.. EVERYTHING about us.. that the outside world.. doesn't know. so.. i guess almost all Man kind and Human have two or more sides.. the FAKE SIDE. and the REAL SIDE. Well.. Hello... Human Nature. :)

Human Nature.. the best actor/actress alive.

wonder why tho.. no one dares to stand up to Human Nature. no one dares to make a change.. although the problem is so clearly right infront.. infront of them. i wonder WHY! no one cares.. or bothers! no one cares to set thingsw straight.. or to set things right! ITS HARD! I KNOW! NOTHING IS EASY IN THIS LIFE.. IN THIS WORLD.. but if you really want to see that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.. or the light at the end of the tunnel.. then GO! STAND FOR WHT YOU KNOW IS RIGHT. GO! MAKE A CHANGE! but nothing would start.. no one would start.. untill a person. untill someone takes the first step...

and it has to begin with ME. it has to begin with the MAN IN THE MIRROR. the mouth.. can talk all day long.. but that alone cannot make a change. NO ONE ..ever said that it was gonna be simple.. gonna be easy.. NO ONE.. ever said that everything will work out the minute u try.. at the first try.. everything will start sailling smoothly..no one ever said that you could see that change in a day.. a week.. a month .. a year.. it could take years! decades! maybe even centuries! but at least you know.. that you have tried.. and try.. and try.. and try.. ultimately.. you can do everything and anything that u think may help..

but ultimately.. you have to also believe.. and have faith.. in that Big Guy up there. to trust.. and know that He has a plan for us. and that He will lead and guide u. and that He is always there. ever ready to catch u if you fall..

God doesn't plan for something bad to happen.. but He surely can take that unfortunate event and make it into something so great and wonderful.

I will try. and I am trying. My biggest enemy? is no one else.. but my very Self. Change myself.. first. and hopefully later on.. so will my Family. If i cannot love my own brothers and sister and parents.. how can i truly and sincerely and genuinely say.. I love You..? How can i even have the cheek.. to say.. i love you.. my friends? or my future boyfriend.. or husband..? how can i love YOU..God...? if i dont unconditionally love you.. My Brother.. My Sister.. My Mother.. My Father..?

God said.. If you cannot even Love your own brother.. How then My child.. Can You Love Me..?

It all has to begin with Me.Myself.. and I.
Go Now. And Dont give up.
Go Now. and Dont lose Hope.
Go Now. and Dont Lose Faith.
And in all that you do.. Dont You Forget Him.

Walk By Faith. And Not By Sight.
Take It to the Lord in Prayer.

Celine Yap is in Terengganu!

yuppie! I'm in Terengganu now. Teaching dance in a dance camp! =) and can u believe it?! I'm actually using my new baby to blog!

YES..!

I managed to earn enough to buy myself a new HP! Muhahaha!!! I got myself a Nokia E63 RED!! I never thought tht I would actually be blogging with a HP wei! Super cool right?! Hehe k lar . Gtg back to teaching. =) can't wait for tonight's performance! Xoxo =)

CNY + Valentines?!

Hey guys! yeshhh! its CNY and Valentines all together this year! Good or Bad combo? i wonderrrr.. ahahahaa..

anyways .. guess wht i'm doing at 2.16am on the 1st day of CNY?!
i'm at a CC.. onlining and all..
haha.. hmm it was a very tiring day..
on the 13th, the eve of CNY.
i slept at 2.30am doing smth for someone..
woke at 6am for Jogging.. with Boon Sin..
Left the Hse with Qian at 9am to go to Aaron pereira's hse..
hung out with him till about 12pm..
went back home.. picked up lil bro..
went to Chloe,ZWei and Rachel's hse..
Makan together and all.. went back to Sunway SPK..
met up with Calvin there.. he picked me up..
we went to Aaron's hse again after tht..
hahaha i brought calvin there as a present.. xD..
"Present" and reached home by 7pm..
slept till 9pm.. ate Dinner at 10pm..
Emo in my room till 12am.. listening to songs..
and hugging my teddy...

Yesh. i was emoing.
reasons. the usual family reunion we always have..
the fireworks.. the firecrackers.. the pop pops..
and all.. the cousins.. uncles.. aunties.. grandma..
all wasnt in my CNY eve this year.
Reason? Some family issues.
rawr. =( since young u noe.. every CNY was like tht..
till this year. Sighs.. oh well.. guess..
its the start of smth new?
was also emoing about smth else.. =( wuwuwu..

then everything changed. mwahahah!
Aunt came in my room, forced me to go down..
she bought this Heartshaped chocolate cake!
so cool. =) for valentines! haha..
then we YAM SEEEEEEEEEEENG! with.. soft drinks. xD =.=..
but everything was fun. and i was really enlightened. =)
Really. she cheered me up.. =) thanks ah sun jie!! ^^
then we went desa parkcity to go coffee bean but it was close. =(
so went hunting for a chilling spot but all close wei!
ended up in OLD TOWN. xD. then now at CC. hahaha..
=D weird and different way of spending the 1st day..
but its a new begining? start of smth new. =D

i will try my best not to emo so much..
or anymore.. Try la. hahahaha...
IGNORE.. the small msges at the end..
of my entries. its nth. =)

So yeah man.
HAPPY CNY AND VALENTINES TO MY LOVELAYY READERS. =)
seriously treasure family relationships,unity,love,care and all.
coz once its gone, its really hard to get it back.
so treasure it aite. seriously. =/

Love.!

Just when i was about to forget,
YOU reminded me about everything All over again.
Oh my my. Help? =/

I never told you..

So much has been happening.. i dont even know where to start.. =(
Good yes, definitely there is..
But Bad.. way Too many.

I've already shifted and yep.
no internet connection.. or house phone..
dont even have a laptop or computer to go online..
my only entertainment now is my handphone..
no tv.. nth! its so hard to even go out for dinner..
just walked a far way to just eat dinner with lil bro..
at cc now. lol...! coz it rained. =.=

but yeah.. there really are way too many things for me to say now..
coz time is running out..
but i guess.. this is life.
many things dun go our way.. as planned..
we just gotta embrace it and find solutions..
or just live with it..

Been a really emo and down Kid..
lately.. Some friends say its a bitter start of 2010 for me..
but hmm.. i guess i'll just leave everything to God..
sometimes.. i just feel so lonely..
but at times.. i just feel like being alone..
and feel like the Only person i could ever fully trust..
Is God himself..

I've tried. but failed.
and nw theres nth i can do..
but to trust and leave it all to God.

Please lead and guide me.. Lord..

I think i should tell you..

but then again.. whats the point?
i dun like you for a reason.

but not because i dont like you.. literally.

forget it. Life goes on.

So long.