of course, we do end up making some very bad choices but it is both the bad and good choices that leads us to where we are today.
A few questions & statements ran through my mind this week.
#1. Why would someone risk everything for just one person/thing if that thing/person cannot,may not, would not give/bring you any promises in the future?
But in the end, i guess thats why they call it a "Leap Of Faith" .
I guess many of us would not have moved from wherever we were before this had we not make such leaps of faith.
That leap can bring you forward, or it may tear u down.. for all you know, this leap may actually destroy u, badly. But can you actually go on leading your life with the "What Ifs" pilling up as you continue your journey in life? hahaa. I know i cannot. I guess i'm the person who'd rather find out than to keep on wondering endlessly what could've been if I had grab this opportunity, make this choice, take this chance, take that risk, etc. It may bring me down, deep. But i guess this is all just parts and parcels of life.
U fall, you get up and try again.
This might be totally unrelated or somehow related with whtever i said above, but...
I have a lot of guy friends and some of them, i'm really close to.
But sometimes when 2 ppl of the opposite sex becomes too close, most often than not, a line has to be drawn between these two individuals.
I'm a person who really values and treasures my friendships.
And so, sometimes when i get too close with a guy and there may be possibilities that certain special feelings may exist, i have these 'talks' with them. If i like that guy too, why not kan? happy me! But what if i just really like this guy as a FRIEND and nothing more?
I really dislike it when my guy friends are lead on by these girls who takes advantage of a guy who is in a vulnerable state. So i always try my best not to be like these girls. And so, as mentioned above, i have these talks with them.
Sometimes, I succeed in preventing the fall of a friendship.
But sometimes, i'm just plain perasan! lol..
and it really hurts my ego. Yes, it does okay! Imagine this, U hv these "do u like me" talks with ur guy friends and in the end, it turns out that u were just thinking wayyyyy too much and being nth but perasan! Very memalukan okay! very very very very!
But i still do it, up till today.
Why so? Because if i think the friendship is worth it, i'm willing to dive in.. whether shallow or deep, i'm willing to put aside my pride and ego, my maruah, throw it one side and just make things clear between me and this friend that i obviously care for. Even if there is a possibility that i might just end up making a fool outta myself, i know that in the end, it is worth it. =)
Though i must say, It does take a lot to put oneself in such a vulnerable state!
it really does!
Then again, if i'm taking these chances and making these choices for someone who matters, i would.
Why wouldn't i?
Sometimes, some things and some people are more important than our pride and ego. Sometimes, its really not about how we feel but more of what is the right thing to do.
And this leads us to that phrase where we should not be led by our emotions and where our actions should not be determined solely on how we feel.
Z Reality of Life!
And lil bits and pieces of I. =)
and oh, i've been having a pretty rocky week. Bumpy ride indeed. But i'm still here.