Like the Sun would Never Shine again..

LOL. i just realize that in my previous entry..
the first line.. "OLA ppl! its been a week.. since i've blocked.."
BLOCKED?! LMAO. =P so.. =.=

Anyways.. its been a rough..and bumpy ride..
i've been so stressed up this past few days..
i really just.. sigh. i had so much things to worry abt tht..
i just lost it for a moment. everything seemed to just..
go wrong.. everything came crashing down.
AT THE SAME TIME.

either the steps weren't good enough.
or it was too fast. too this too that.
i sometimes felt like.. OKAY FINE!
since i'm doing the song and everything ..
why don't u just choreograph the whole thing..
According to ur liking? since nth is ever good enough for u..
But nooo.. u complain but dont give solutions.
now hey, how am i suppose to cope?
if its not good enough.. then GO AHEAD..
CHOREOGRAPH the WHOLE dance routine.!
yesh. i felt so annoyed. u ask me to do.
i do. i giv my best. u dun like it. i ask ur opinion.
but u just keep ur mouth shut and just..
GAAAAAAAAH~! i'm human too okay.
IF we had a whole month left. FINE.
Change this. change that. Change the WHOLE thing if u want.
BUT we've only got 3 more days left!
Here i am trying to teach u.. the whole thing..
but at every step. u go .. Haaaaaaah.. change la.
DO u know hw annoying and GRR is tht?
Prelims are like.. ON SATURDAY for goodness sake.!

i guess this small thing really got on my nerves.
not only coz of tht but coz of so much other stuff..
tht i had to settle. our transport.
pracs. finding teacher. making sure we have a place to prac.
burning the song. editing the song.
besides our dance thing i had school poems and choral speakings.
English quiz competition, POS choreography to be done..
and here u are making it seem like i'm the FREE-est person on earth.
during pracs u dun wanna prac the stuff tht ur not good at..
but keep practising the stuff tht ur good at.
whats the point? and u let ur mood affect ur prac times.
WHAT IS ALL THIS BS lah.. PLEASE THINK OF THE TEAM..
Stop thinking bout urself.. do u noe ur moody-ness affects us all?
coz we're a team.. and when u do tht.. the whole team becomes moodless..
and then u dun wanna prac. when i make u prac.
u do it for the sake of doing so.
and in the result.. today when we performed for shawn..
u guys just got all blur and forgot all ur steps.. then u start feeling all shity.
see larh. when u had those precious times to prac.
think carefully whether u appreciated those times.

Dancing together used to be so fun.
not till u guys keep letting ur mood affect the team.
thats just plain irresponsible okay...
the start of prac today sucked so badly.
we just finished the whole choreography..
some of u knew half.. some knew the other half..
and worse thing was tht we had to perform just now.
And to make things worse tht kepo had to kacau us..
for using the music room to prac. leave us alone lah..
last time u dun let us use the studio. fine.
acceptable. now this?! why do u make it seem like..
each stomp we do on the music room floor..
u get stabbed with a knife and it makes u hurt like crazy.?
are we doing any wrong? do we harm anyone by dancing..
and practicing in the music room? UNLOGICAL LIKE ...#$%$#

U always talk all soft.. gentle.. durin assembly.
"Jadikanlah sekolah sebagai rumah kedua anda."
MY BUTTT LA! rumah kedua my butt.
"Sekolah boleh menjadi tempat bergantung pelajar"
MY FOOOT! bergantung? YA RIGHT.
when we wanna bergantung pada sekolah..
wt they do? chase us away. ALL BS like crazy.
FAKErs and hypocrites. my headmistress sucks.

But anyways.. yes.. we were friggin emo..
and down after tht stupid lady came..
and made things worse.. our moods were just soooooooo..
down.. right to the valley of two tall tall mountains..
but after letting out all tht anger..
it gained back our teamspirit..
to be one. to prove them wrong. to be united..
once again. like hw were were..
it made us stronger.. as a team. =)
Well hey.. "Everything happens for a reason." =)

i really hope we'd make it to Finals.
if not. i just wish tht we'd have a great performance.
at least we'll be sure to give our best. =) right?
i hope with this remaining 2 days..
we'd be able to perfect our whole dance choreography.
Jia You us. =)

[whatever it takes baby! =) ]