I'm so darn tired..Yesterday had dance prac..Back to dance pracs..hehs..Neways..I slept at 3am that morning..Coz some1 needed me by their side...so i was there for tht some1 till that sum1 was ok..anyways..went to dance prac..and...it was the first time i found it ever so hard to just put on a smile...i dunno why...no strength to even smile i guess..=P well at least i tried...i was just to tired...anyways to me dance team..u guys are really doing well..=) keep it up! make sure u take care of urself before this saturday's performance kays?
Hmms...about christmas...it's like..finally here...18 days away...HELP ANYONE???!!! sighs...I just cant feel christmas...If u don't know..i'm some1 who loves christmas times the MOST..i was waiting for it the whole year...so excited bout it...but now..its here..and i feel no nothing..Wheres my christmas spirit? that i dunoo..Can sum1 help me rmb? help me rmb wht..it feels like..to have that christmas joy..that joy..and peace...that i love so much abt christmas..i feel very emotionless...i've been like this..eversince..i came back from KL..or rather..coz of something that happen in KL...that made me tell myself..."let it not affect you.." and maybe..because of that..i started to block feelings..and now i've turn to stone..turn to stone that i cant feel anything anymore...maybe..i've harden myself up to much...cause maybe..i tot..by hardening up myself..I'll stand strong...and no one can bring me down...is that why..i cant feel anything? or rather..why i'm just simply emotionless? i seriously feel like i'm sumwhere else...far far far away from whtever is happening arnd me..theres like this blockage..preventing me from crossing over...Is there anyone out there to remove this blockage for me??
It's funny how..most of the times..when ppl have problems..or whenver some1 needs some advice..or when they come to me to talk...i can help them..i'm able to answer their questions..i'm able to counsel them..but when it comes to myself...i'm just darn blank...I CANT EVEN HELP MYSELF..I guess thats the reason why they say friends need friends...NO ONE in the world...could possibly survive..standing alone..theres always some1...right beside them..standing by..and helping them up again whenever they fall...
Most of my close friends would know that..I'm not the kind of person..to be this way..i'm always the lifely person around...cheering ppl up..bouncing here and there like a crazy maniac..What has happen....to me....i seriously don't know...
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