November already?! :O

Hey guys!

It's been ages. I know. Tell me about it!
Gosh.. You know, i thought i would have more room to breathe after my party. Guess i thought wrong! I've been so overwhelmed ever since i got back from the UK ! The series of events that just keep on coming and going in a consecutive manner has been crazy!

To start,
How did my party go?

My Birthday Cake! Designed it and decorated it myself! :D
A cake of the things I Love. =D.!
Kit Kats and Oreos! 

Well, to be honest, since I was practically the only one planning my 21st Birthday party, i guess you can only imagine how stressful it was! There was soooo many things to deal with and it overwhelmed me. It did. Thank God for friends who helped tho!

Thank you all, who helped to cook some of the things on the menu! and to those who helped before, during and after the party! I couldn't have done it without my family and friends! But the whole party had went according to how i pictured it. =)) Everything was exactly like how i imagined it to be! It really felt like a celebration and there was just so much love and warmth surrounding the place! Also! thank you to those who performed! it was lovely..  Thank you for all the gifts, and for simply sharing this precious memory with me. =)) It was definitely a night to remember and a 21st Birthday Party that will be kept close to the heart and mind for a very long time.. =)

Here's some pictures of z Party! :D

 

It felt as if it was a dream. A Vintage dream that came true. ='))
Thank you all for being a part of this happy and memorable celebration!
One that was filled with laughter,singing, and dancing. =)

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After my party, the load of my studies came crashing like a tsunami. Unannounced.
Job opportunities for my Dancing Life also came knocking at my door, more often than ever!
And so, I have been having a very tough time at juggling both my final year of Law School and my Dancing Life.!

I have had the opportunity, just 2 weeks ago, to dance for Dato Siti Nurhaliza on a TV show called "Akademi Fantasia"! 

Dato Siti Nurhaliza and I ! :D

I have always, always had this dream of being a back up dancer for an Artist that i look up to, on National Tv!

And this came true, this year !
After all these years of dreaming and wishing.. Hoping..
And I couldn't feel more blessed to have been given the honor of dancing back up for Siti Nurhaliza, someone i grew up watching on TV, hearing about, and listening to, on radios!
It was a great, great experience.




I have also had the opportunity to dance for a Hair Show at Sg.Wang.
And they gave me this make over for the purposes of promoting their new hair product. haha. but yeah! Dark Green and Red! Never imagined having such a colour combination before! =P

With z Crew, HyperActive Crew at z Hairshow. :D
Massive make up and hair do. haha. Yes, that is I. =P
So now you know how i look like with massive make up and curly hair. :D

Had the opportunity to perform in Time square as well, for some KPOP TV competition, which also went on TV! :D

Performing at a Youth Event.! :D

And was surprised with this pretty pretty flower after z Show! ='))

And then came the deepavali holidays! Finally had a proper Sunday, the way sundays are supposed to be! contrary to the 9-6.30pm spent in Uni, having class, on a Sunday. D:

So yeah! T'was a happy sunday! got to rest, go to church, have lunch with friends, dinner with parents. Such a nice day of rest. Really needed it!

And i've also been working part time at events as well to earn a lil extra. U see, it's quite difficult to maintain your own car when you're a full time student, with no monthly income. Hence! The dance jobs and extra part time jobs! Yes, this month is service month. Boofus is gonna be sent to z workshop and it's gonna cost a bomb. =( So many things to be changed!

but yeah, besides that, all is good. Just the typical wear and tear of things.
So yeah! Been so difficult to work, study and dance at the same time!
Sometimes, i really don't blame my mum for getting all worked up and angry for not having enough time for myself. =(

Last Night, with the Finalist of AF 2013. :D
Sucha lovely bunch of people! 

Will also be dancing for the Akademi Fantasia Finals, this Sunday, 17th of November at Stadium Negara. =D so yesh! been busy with this as well! 

And assignments are piling up..time is flying and i've yet to read so many textbooks and journals and articles. =((

I guess, it's never easy wanting to balance two completely different worlds, but it is something that i want to do and so i shouldn't be complaining! In fact, I am actually really thankful and happy for all the doors that God has been opening to me lately! I am, very very much. Couldn't feel more blessed. 

But I also feel really bad whenever I get so overwhelmed and busy to the point where I can't keep in touch with my close friends. =( I try, but its just so difficult sometimes. Because as of now, I don't even have time to have sufficient sleep. =( So yeah.. i feel really bad for taking so long to reply some of the messages they've sent me.. be it thru fb or smses. But being the person I am, I dont like to give people short, 'cin cai' replies. So whenever i read their messages, i think to myself, okay, i'll reply them later when i have time to give them a proper reply. But sometimes, that time just never comes.

I guess, time is a luxury that I cannot afford at the moment. =/

But anyways! If you're reading this! You know i'll get back to you sooner or later. You know that i really miss you guys too and that I want to tell you, in detail, about all the things that has been happening lately, but i can only do so prolly.. idk.. in december. D: My november schedule is like, maxed out!

I knowwww. so busy.
But i promise! You guys will hear from me soon!

Miss you all!

Can't wait to meet up and talk to you guys asap!

But in the mean time, please take care and be safe!

Till next time! =)

xoxo.!

1 week to go! :D

Hi people!

Here's me, reporting to you, in a pretty sweaty condition ( because i just worked out =P ) and probably, a lil smewy.. but ahh who cares anyways. It's good to have some stinky people in your life every once in a while. =P haha.

So we're a week away from my Birthday and how's planning going?
Well, I guess quite a lot of the main issues are pretty much settled..
Ie: the venue.. the theme.. time.. date..

Where as for the food, i've been trying to find a suitable caterer for my party over the week, but to no avail, didn't succeed in finding one. HENCE, i have decided to cook for my own party! :D
I know it sounds pretty suicidal.. but i figured. with the amount the caterers are charging for basic food like fried rice, mee hoon, etc, i could provide more yummy food for my guests if i cooked. Then again, the only problem that i and many of us are forever facing, would be that of Time. T_T

As you probably already know, I am.. a busy busy bee. Especially so when I have a party to plan and prepare for! I have yet to shop for the decorations, parts of my costume for the night as well as z ingredients. And oh! Guess what? i have decided to design my own cake.. I thought of baking my own cake as well, but that is probably not the best idea now that I am already going to be cooking for my own party of 50 people and more. SO, i would be ordering a plain cake and I will be designing it with the things I love! :D What a dream cake it would be! Heee. :DDD

So yes, Cake, Food and Decorations to be settled.
As for the food, i have gotten a few friends to help me out and so they have totally help eased the burden by a tonne!

Really excited about this party and yet, really nervous.
Before i rush off to class.. yes, class on a saturday till 7.30pm,
I'd like to share with you a sentence that has touched my heart and made my week.

When i talked to david about cooking for my own party, and sought his opinion if he thought it was suicidal, he offered immediately, without me asking, to help cook carbonara and mashed potatoes.. and said..

" We're going to your party for You, not for the food. "

And it may seem like a normal, simple sentence to you, but it definitely reminds me of how blessed I am to have so many good friends around me. And of course, a supportive family. =)

Also when I was talking to Dylan about surveying the prices of Helium balloons, he had already done so without me asking. And told me where it would be cheapest to get them. =)) I feel so loved and touched! ='))

And how my siblings are calling me or performing for me in my room to ask me if i thought it was okay for them to perform these items at my party.. Practicing few weeks ahead..

I am Blessed.
Very very Blessed.

Period.

Can't wait!
xoxo.!

Because You have to make them see what they cannot.

I've been pretty stressed out lately because of my party preps and a few other issues.
Party is in 11 days! :O oh boyy how time flies!

Yet to get z deco, catering, contact the baker.. and that's abt it i guess.
Little but still very vital things.

Anyways, been really stressed out not solely because of preps. But more so because of the realization about how sad the people around me are or have been feeling due to whatever reasons they may have. And it makes me sad as well.. and I do what I can.. and I do what I do best, being a friend that's always there.. a listening ear.. a shoulder to cry on.. arms to comfort.. and my two cents worth of advise.

But i can only do so much and sometimes, I can't help but feel helpless.
I wish I had the power to make everything alright..
But reality is often not so kind. Sighs. =(

Hence, i do what i can.. with the hope that it is sufficient.. maybe not adequate.. but the least enough to help them get through this tough and rough period.

So many, one after another.
And it breaks my heart as much as it breaks theirs.
But yeah.. I can only do so much. =( Haihs.

Anyways! party party~ can't wait. Nervous yet excited!
Can't believe it's October already!
xoxo.!

My Younger Self.

Hey all!

So.. yes. Super emo entry. BUT, good news is, i've finally found a place and sorted out a few things that needs to be sorted. So phewh! Less things to worry about!

I guess i was just really stressed out.. and i felt as if i was doing everything alone.. and so, i felt extremely.. stressed out and.. helpless. =( I guess planning a birthday party alone is never an easy task. But yeaaaah. Finally found a place yesterday. SO , one less thing to worry about. =)

Anyways, i came across a few old entries of mine. Back to the year 2006 and 2007.. when i was only 14 or 15.. and boy did i laugh my pants off! I was.. SO... HYPER... back then! Extremely Hyper! I was such a Happy Kid.

Those who know me now, knows that I am easily happy. But last time, I was even more easily satisfied. My day could be this really bad day where everything that could've gone wrong, went wrong. But at the end of the day, i'd be really happy, simply because i got to eat Pizza! hahahaha! So amused. Really. And the fact that i still see certain similarities from my younger self to the person i am to date, amazes me as well. The way I talk.. or the way i'd type things.. haha. ALSO. Gosh.. the ample of things that i learn from my younger self from time to time never cease to surprise me really.

For example, there came a time where I was just really angry about how everyone was putting the blame on me even though I had absolutely nothing to do with it. But simply because I was elder, i was the one to be blamed. The most trivial things. Ie: when my little brother decided to go on a diet because he felt he was becoming chubby, or when he accidentally spill some water on the couch. All these trivial things, i got scolded for simply because, I was the older one. =.=..........

Don't see why? I don't either.
So yeah, i was really upset, i felt as if everything that was going was just really unfair and ridiculous. But halfway through my angry entry, i suddenly started to type about how Jesus went through the exact same thing. You know what? i will just paste z paragraph here. And yes, i had serious spelling errors back then. Don't judge me k. haahaha.

"But then again..If i think Back..Jesus went through the same thing..But he did not say a word..All the critic...and all the blames...When he did nothing but good...And he died on the cross to take away all OUR sins....not HIS...But ours...How FAIR is that? ITS NOT! ITS NOT ONE SINGLE BIT FAIR...Haihs...i guess i should learn from tht and just shut my mouth and just receive all that Sense-less blames ...All that blames which i do not deserve...It will be so hard...Haih..I need u Lord...Help me...Give me the patience...And just help me to not expload whenever i'm about too..."


And that was my 14 year old self, talking.
This is why i love blogging. It may help others, reading my blog along the way. But it helps the future me as well. My younger self never fails to remind me of all the values and principles i stood by.. and how i should continue to stand by them. =) It's so easy nowadays to forget who we are, too easy. But i'm thankful that I constantly have things around me to remind me of who I am, who I want to be, and who I don't want to become.

My walk down memory lane.
haha. *happysighs*

16 Days till I turn 21.!
SO much to do! Leggo!
xoxo.!

22 Days till..

It's 22 days till I turn 21.

I was reluctant at first when deciding if I should celebrate my 21st with a Party. Because it has been a really long time since i've last celebrated my birthday with a party.
Probably the last party was during my 15th Birthday party.. and things were much easier and simple back then because we had proper place and space for a party to be hosted at home.. but things in KL is so much different compared to my previous home in JB.

Hence why i was pretty reluctant. I guess.. the thought of planning my 21st birthday party kinda scared me. Somehow..
It's really funny how it is SOOOO easy for me to plan an awesome birthday surprise for my friends.. for other people.. the ideas.. the creativity, everything just comes to me in a heart beat. But when it came to me? when it came to my own party? My mind just went blank.

22 days till.. and i have yet to find a suitable place to have it.
And there is alot of things that i cannot get done yet without having a confirmed venue. =(
I had two places in mind. One is prolly not gonna be an option anymore and the other is still pending confirmation.. problem with these two  places is that I can't directly deal with the management as these two places would require a residence to deal with the management. Coz only residence are allowed to rent the place. And so i have to go thru 2 people.. and so everything is just really messy and confusing and uncertain. Gosh. Don't you just hate the feeling of Uncertainty? =(

And so I would prolly have to start looking for other options as to where i should host z birthday party.. I feel very touched and blessed that many have decided to attend my birthday party despite the fact that they don't know where it would be held as yet. But i guess.. i just feel really helpless at the moment.. because..

I am blanked out. I don't know what to do. How to do it. Where to have it. etc.
I have gotten the caterer's number and i sort of have a picture of how i would want my birthday party to look like. But.. i dont know. i guess everything just feels so uncertain. =(

Also, the thing that really upset me this time, was finding out who are your true friends and who are not. They seem so nice..all the time, when everything is mutual and when everything is normal. But when u need help, and when u ask for help, they suddenly become all busy.. become all "maaa faaaan" ish.

I guess, what i'm trying to say is that..

If someone didn't need your help, they wouldn't have asked.
Asking for help, is putting oneself in a very vulnerable position.
Putting oneself in a position where you are exposed to the many possibilities of rejection.
And trust me, that is a very scary position to be in.

I guess that is life..
You find out who your true friends are as you go along in life in time.

At the moment, i feel really discouraged and demotivated..
To the point of wanting to just drop the whole idea of even celebrating my 21st.
Why did I even agree to celebrate my 21st? Sighs.

Back from Europe! =)

Hey peeps!

It's been a gazillion years! :O

If you didn't already know, I was MIA due to me hollie in Europe for a month! =)
It was amazing travelling around Europe with my one and only twin and Bestfriend! =)
An unforgettable experience, a priceless one.

So yeps! Got back just a few days ago and I've been trying to reset my biological clock to Malaysia time! haha. mannn... that has not been fun. Nuh uh. Not one bit. Been having serious jet lag issues since the 1st. Sleeping time pretty screwed up.. meal times.. but i think i'm almost there! haha. Coz i finally had some proper rest yesterday night! Contrary to the pass few days.. sleeping at 7am.. even though i tried sleeping at 2am.. haha. Rolled around till 8am. T_T

But yeah, ever since i've got back, been back to my crazy busy life.
Had a lot of things to get sorted.. have not even unpack! haha.
And Final Year of Law School is already starting in 2 days time!
Time flies! :O

Also, my timetable for final year.. will cause me to miss all 3 services in my current church.. =( and so, i would prolly have to attend another church for the time being. It's pretty saddening for me to do so because i've just started serving, recently, in my church's worship team. But now, with this timetable, prolly have to back out for a while. =( Sighs. oh wells.

And anyways! gonna be working at some big shot politician's wedding tomorrow. =P
Workaholic? Maybe. =P Just maybe. haha.

But it'll be my first time working along side a wedding planner!
So that is going to be pretty interesting! :D
Can't wait! =)

I shall update you peeps about z Europe trip soon!
but till then! I hope all of you are well and Happy.. =))
I know I am. =D

xoxo.!