The truth is,

The truth is, someone might mean a whole lot to you, but to them? you're just another friend.
You might lose precious hours of sleep listening to their problems.. yadayada but when it comes to you, they just wouldn't do the same. U might drive out, go totally out of your way to help this friend and really odd hours..wee hours in the morning. But the truth is, they would not do the same for you.

I'm not pin pointing this entry at anyone so please dont be perasan and terasa and all k?

this is just a conclusion i have derived after having such a crappy week with tonnes of unnecessary issues with a few friendships of mine. The ones that i treasure and sincerely care for.

Sometimes it is so hard, trying to be selfless, putting the feelings of others before your own.
because in the end, a good friend would set aside their feelings when they know that their friend is not in the right state of mind or in the best situation. They just need you at that point, to pick them up when they're falling down.

A good friend, would throw the truth in your face whether you'd like to hear it or not REGARDLESS of what you may think of them after doing so.
Because a good friend cares more about your well being than what you may think of them. A good friend wont just want to please your ears but they want you to walk in the right direction. And if there are things in you that requires fixing, they would let you know and try fix it together with you.

Sometimes, regardless of how busy you are, you'd devote your precious time for these people you call friends. Because if they mean something to you, you'd find the time, somehow..sooner or later. but if they're not, simple. U just start giving all kinds of excuses.

Sometimes u might sacrifice a whole lot for a friend, but they either dont appreciate it/take it for granted or they just dont care and they wouldn't do the same for you. Simple, you dont really mean much to them.

I for one really dislike being ffk-ed.
i'm a very busy person. & when i allocate time for you, u must mean smth to me.
But for u to just sudd ffk me for a bad reason goes to show how much you value my time/ me as a friend.
No one likes being ffk-ed. but for me, I'm just really particular about being ffk-ed. I REALLY...dont like it. & it really pisses me off when it happens. truth be told.

sighs..

idk la. this week has been such a LOOOONG week. I just feel so tired and fed up.
some ppl might not appreciate your effort and sacrifices as a friend and would rather blindly adore the so called friends. Some might even accuse you when all you ever had in mind were good motives. But ah well. i guess this is just one of the many realities of life kan?

Some people just dont appreciate you.
So why bother? Simple, you care for them.
Isn't it hurtful/painful tho? Fo Sure!
But its okay. one day. one day. i'd like tho think that they'd finally come to their senses. one day, they'd finally realize that..oh crap. She was a good friend and i took her for granted. She was a true friend and i took her for granted.

Can be so disappointing and upsetting as well.
But thank God, not all my friends are like that.
i'd rather have a few good friends than a thousand 'friends'.

And then theres this opposite sex barrier btw friendships.
so annoying.
very annoying.
but sometimes, u just cant do anything about it.
and then one way or another sooner or late you'd have to deal with the weirdness/awkwardness that somehow arises out of no where.. due to other people or the person in the friendship. And then you'd have to confront the matter.. and then the friendship either makes or breaks.. and the cycle then repeats itself with the same or different people.

is this really how it'd continue to go on?
is there somehow a different route to all of these issues?

This is so tiring.

My Turtle moment.

Quite a few things happened yday. No, not just matters involving guys. Psssh.

But today, i woke up having the.. I dont wanna go out of my shell for a while! feeling.
I just feel like curling up into my shell and stay put for a while.
Quite a few unnecessary matters have been happening and i'm just so..
ahhhh i dont wanna deal with all these unnecessary matters for a while.
I just wanna have a peaceful week.. before 2nd year starts.

I honestly feel like isolating myself from the world..
And just live in my shell for a while with My small circle of ppl.

On a side note..

U see.. i happen to be a really friendly girl.
Why must people always think of a guy and girl who are close to be an item?
Why does the society of today still have such a closed mindset?
Can't a guy and a girl just be nothing more than just close friends?
isit such a hard picture to digest?

And why do guys/girls have to just have this..
" *gasp!* i think he/she likes me! " thinking when the other person was being nothing but friendly?
Why can't you accept the fact that there are people out there who are actually genuinely just.. really.. friendly? Why must there always be something more when in actual fact, there isn't?

Why must u go..

"Ohhhhh my goodness! He/she is being so friendly! i think he/she likes me! :D :D :D! or :O :O :O! "

And then you either start showing back hints of interest or u start ignoring and disappearing from that person's life?

Its so frustrating lah!
Why can't there be just a simple good and clear friendship between people of the opposite sex?
why must there always be something more?
Why must there always be a level 2?
why cant it just stay at level 1?

I think the problem to such situations would most probably be.. communication.
Probably a huge misunderstanding or rather, a huge mistaken assumption..
People nowadays really dont like to talk abt it huh?
like they dont really want to ask or somehow talk abt it.. they just want to assume.
Assuming is such a dangerous thing to do maaaans.. seriously..

Have u never heard of the phrase that goes..

" When you ASSUME.. u make an Ass out of U and Me?! "

Okay. Maybe i'm just being really exaggerative. But ahh.. this is just something i needed to get off my chest. I guess not everyone can express themselves properly and everyone is different in their own special and unique ways. Then again, this matter has really been frustrating me throughout the years..

I thought such assumptions would leave me by the time i was out of highschool..
turns out, it follows you still! till.. i really dont know when.

I guess it just frustrates me to the core that some people just cannot accept the fact that some people out there just want to genuinely and sincerely be JUST friends.

You know? Like a steady friend? Not an interested friend?
To the guys and girls out there, yes they actually exist!
not everyone wants to be your girlfriend or boyfriend.
Am i being too harsh? Sorry if i am. I'm just ...... NYEH.!

But dont get me wrong! It is different when a girl or guy becomes OVER friendly.
Ahh okay fine. Sometimes IT IS really hard to differentiate.. Even more difficult when that person is just genuinely, Nice. It's so hard to tell the difference. You just cant tell. But sometimes u can? IDK. T_T but it DOES help when u confront the matter rather than just assume right? aiyohh... i dont know laaaah.

but ahhhhhhhhhhh.. its frustrating. D:
Okay. Off my chest.

Its gonna be my turtle moment for a while.
I think i need to retreat to my shell.

K, Bye!

xoxo.!

Life.

U know, often Life is about taking chances and making the right choices.

of course, we do end up making some very bad choices but it is both the bad and good choices that leads us to where we are today.

A few questions & statements ran through my mind this week.

#1. Why would someone risk everything for just one person/thing if that thing/person cannot,may not, would not give/bring you any promises in the future?

But in the end, i guess thats why they call it a "Leap Of Faith" .

I guess many of us would not have moved from wherever we were before this had we not make such leaps of faith. 

That leap can bring you forward, or it may tear u down.. for all you know, this leap may actually destroy u, badly. But can you actually go on leading your life with the "What Ifs" pilling up as you continue your journey in life? hahaa. I know i cannot. I guess i'm the person who'd rather find out than to keep on wondering endlessly what could've been if I had grab this opportunity, make this choice, take this chance, take that risk, etc. It may bring me down, deep. But i guess this is all just parts and parcels of life. 

U fall, you get up and try again.

This might be totally unrelated or somehow related with whtever i said above, but...

I have a lot of guy friends and some of them, i'm really close to.

But sometimes when 2 ppl of the opposite sex becomes too close, most often than not, a line has to be drawn between these two individuals.

I'm a person who really values and treasures my friendships.

And so, sometimes when i get too close with a guy and there may be possibilities that certain special feelings may exist, i have these 'talks' with them. If i like that guy too, why not kan? happy me! But what if i just really like this guy as a FRIEND and nothing more?

I really dislike it when my guy friends are lead on by these girls who takes advantage of a guy who is in a vulnerable state. So i always try my best not to be like these girls. And so, as mentioned above, i have these talks with them. 

Sometimes, I succeed in preventing the fall of a friendship.

But sometimes, i'm just plain perasan! lol..

and it really hurts my ego. Yes, it does okay! Imagine this, U hv these "do u like me" talks with ur guy friends and in the end, it turns out that u were just thinking wayyyyy too much and being nth but perasan! Very memalukan okay! very very very very!

But i still do it, up till today. 

Why so? Because if i think the friendship is worth it, i'm willing to dive in.. whether shallow or deep, i'm willing to put aside my pride and ego, my maruah, throw it one side and just make things clear between me and this friend that i obviously care for. Even if there is a possibility that i might just end up making a fool outta myself, i know that in the end, it is worth it. =)

Though i must say, It does take a lot to put oneself in such a vulnerable state!

it really does!

Then again, if i'm taking these chances and making these choices for someone who matters, i would.

Why wouldn't i?

Sometimes, some things and some people are more important than our pride and ego. Sometimes, its really not about how we feel but more of what is the right thing to do. 

And this leads us to that phrase where we should not be led by our emotions and where our actions should not be determined solely on how we feel.

Z Reality of Life!

And lil bits and pieces of I. =)

and oh, i've been having a pretty rocky week. Bumpy ride indeed. But i'm still here.

xoxo.!

=(

I've been really busy.

I've been surrounded by alot of people in the pass few months,weeks and days.

People i love.. people i care for and people who love and care for me in return.

But for some reason, i have been feeling so down this whole week!

I cannot seem to understand my own feelings and why i'm feeling the way i'm feeling.

But i can definitely feel it deep within my heart. That is for sure.

And at the moment, this feeling is really overwhelming me.

Up to the point where i just feel like bursting into tears.

I feel so sad. I feel this pain consuming the joy and happiness in my heart.

I am happy when i am with my bestfriend and with other people.

But when i'm alone, this feeling overwhelms me and it is getting stronger and deeper day by day.

I dont know what to say or do..

i dont even know for sure why i'm feeling whatever i'm feeling.

Sighs. ='(

There now, steady love, so few come and dont go.

Will you wont you, be the one i'll always know?

When i'm losing my control, the city spins around..

You're the only one who knows, You slow it down.

Sun + Rain = Rainbows! :D

Hewooo~!
It has been a while since i've last posted anything!
I've been really busy and caught up with alot of things.. It is crazy how fast time is flying! 2nd year will be starting in no time! And its back to all the hard time finding parking, crazy classes, books books books and the library!

I dont regret one bit how i spent my summer break. =) It has been the best break i've ever had! So many trips with so many awesome people! So many performances with the crew i can finally call, Family. =) I've always wanted to find such a crew and i've tried. But many did not work out because of many different personalities that clashes. But now? So far so good and i hope this would last. =) It has been my best Summer yet! =)

So lets see, after getting my results, My uni mates and I had a celebration night! It was such a fun night! :D!!!

Meet Edwin! One of my buddies in class! One of the Brothas! =)

Family Portrait! =))

And i've been able to spend heaps of time with My twin! =))))))))
Ahh.. How i've missed our twin times!

During the raya hollies, My sissy and her family suddenly came up to KL without telling us! Haha.. what a surprise! But i had to change alot of my plans because of the surprise. Family comes first right? =)

Ahhh.. Me cuties! Love love love them!

My Twin.! :))

And we had this crazy brunch at IKEA! Fuyoh~ first time ordering so much food in ikea! Went up to rm100++  :O!

Mummy and Daddy!

And at night we had THE Celebration dinner at Chillis, Mid V! :D

How nice of my parents to have had this dinner for me! ahhh... =) I feel so loved and cared for! I feel so happy that they are so proud of me! 

My Baby Brotha~ :))

Hahaha.. They so cute lah! *cuddles!!!*

Thank You dear family for all your love and support!
Despite our petty arguments, i know that family is always there no matter what.

The Yappies! :D

- Benson.Melissa.Celine.Benroy -

It was so nice to have that family day. It is so rare! such a rare occasion! Coz everyone is just too busy with whatever they're doing. Its so rare to have the whole family out, together. haha.. Mel is in JB.. mum and dad is always working.. benson is always either in Kampar or with his gf..  and well, its just me and benroy most of the time. It didn't use to be like this tho. We used to be one big family, all the time. But i guess, things change as time passes. Mum didn't use to work. But we're all scattered around now. Well, at least we do get to have such days, still. Better than nothing at all. =)

Anyways, it was such a great night, great day. I ate brunch and dinner at my two favourite places! And i was with my favourite people! =) Happppyyyy. =)))))))

sides that, a very close friend of mine flew off to the US to further his studies.

Nicholas Kam Ching Jee!

The Kam family and I ! + James. haha..
At z airport~

Foofoo.. =)

Take care of yourself foofoo.. I miss you already! :(
1437!

I am so blessed to have so many people around me who sincerely cares and love me and I myself, am very blessed to have so many people to love and care for. =)

There will always be sunny times and rainy times.
but it is both the sun and the rain that makes the rainbows in life. =)

I am excited to move into the next phase of my life.
Here i come. 

Mess with me not because i not only have the most wonderful people following close behind but also an Awesome God who is both Able and Powerful.

:P

xoxo.!

RESULTS RESULTS RESULTS!

The beautiful Perth. =)

HELLO PEOPLE!

I was out the whole day yesterday when i kept getting tonnes of phone calls from friends, telling me their results and asking about mine. I was pretty chilled about results day, to be honest. I was just really curious and i didn't know what to expect. Passing all my subjects was a definite expectation but i didn't want to just merely pass and hence, i worked really hard. After all those phone calls, i got REALLY excited to find out what my results were.

When i finally got home around 9pm plus plus.. i finally got to check my results through this site they have allocated for us to check our results!

*drumrolls~~~*

I am happy with my results and i am contented. I got good results and i am really happy that all my hard work paid off! the shocker was the fact that among all my subjects, i scored the highest for Public Law! which happened to be my greatest nightmare for intermediate! and my toughest hurdle! to make things worse, i had a high fever before and during the exams! I cannot thank God enough for being so merciful and graceful.

I surely could not have gone through this hurdle without His mercy and grace!

Lord, Your Grace is truly sufficient for me!

When i saw my results, a small part of me wish i did better! But a big part of me reminded myself to be contented with whatever i got. Happiness didn't fully struck me till my dad affirmed himself that my results were good!

My mum was randomly asking me if i wanted the KFC they've bought downstairs.. My dad then popped into my room and said.. 

" No, she dont want KFC. She wants an expensive dinner for getting SUCH GOOD RESULTS! "

I dont want an expensive dinner nor do i expect any gifts from neither of my parents. I just want their acceptance and i just want them to be proud of me. That is of most importance to me! And so, when i heard those 3 words from my Dad, the part of me that was worried, nervous, thinking whether or not this is good enough for my dad JUMPED WITH JOY! Ahhh.. i was truly truly happy, then. =))))))))))))))

No gifts can compare to the acceptance by your parents and knowing the fact that they are indeed, Proud of you. =)))

I can deny all i want that throughout my schooling years and years of exams, i am not doing this for my parents but for myself. But i would only be fooling myself. Part of me would always seek the approval from my parents and a part of me would always want to make my parents proud! I AM,of course, studying hard and working hard for myself and for my future as well. So now that this chapter of my life has come to an end, i wish only for the best for my 2nd year to be even better!

I want to do better for my 2nd year and hopefully, i can do well enough in order for me to escape the need to repay my ptptn loan. =) it is a tough aim and it is a difficult one. But i always believe that as long as you put your heart to whatever you are doing, you will find ways to achieve it and not excuses as to why you cannot.

On the 28th of June 2009, the 17 year old me came up with this quote which i still stand by up till now.
" Dont complain, Work on It! "

and that is what i will do. =)
Dear family and friends, Thank you so much for all your support! Even the shortest,smallest word of encouragement meant a great deal to me! All the lil things that you did, all the hugs that you gave me whether physically or through the internet meant a great deal to me! U have no idea how these lil things motivated me and boost my thrive to keep going! And here i am today, because of all of you. =)
Thank you for all the phone calls yesterday! I feel very much loved and cared for.

It is not I, but God. :)

xoxo.!

Growing up.

=)

Recently, i just cant help but have the " We're all growing up, aren't we? " Feeling. 

It's like alot of my friends are starting their internships with particular companies, joining organizations relating to their field of study and flying off to here there and everywhere! 

Alot of us will be scattered very soon, all around the world.

But i do hope that once we graduate, all of us would do something meaningful with our degrees.

I really hope that we'd all be able to make a change in our very own country in our different ways.

Friendships will be put to the test.

Some will remain and some will just fade away to the excuses of time and distance.

But till then, I hope for nothing but the best. =)

I wouldn't want to go back in time nor do i wish for the clock to tick faster.

I am contented with the life i have lead and the one that i have yet to lead.

Stay tuned for the next post of the Life of Celine Yap, as a child & as a teen. =)

I've been meaning to post this particular entry ever since last year but i somehow never got down to doing so. Till then, 

xoxo.!

Time to start Caring.

I'm pretty sure all of you Malaysians are aware of the vastly increasing crime rates in our beloved country. And it is heart breaking to hear and read about all the stories of the victims of such ruthless people! Very recently, a few of my friends have been victims of these robbing/chopping incident. I would just like to share these stories with you just so that you are aware of their evil tactics and schemes that they are using nowadays. i will leave out their race because i dont think that is an issue to be pin pointed on.

Story 1: true story, if i mad add.

my friend's brother was walking to his car in the car park when suddenly 4 guys approached him with parangs in their hands. Without any warning, they stroke his head with the Parang. He ran. He ran for his life and he ran as far and fast as he could but unfortunately, he tripped and fell. Without any mercy, they continued to slash him with the Parang. His head, especially, was the main target. Thank God that he fell near a Mamak stall and alot of ppl from the mamak decided to help! so these crazy fellas ran away and stole only the bag he was carrying. The stuffs in his pocket was still intact. He had to stay awake the whole time.  On their journey to the hospital AND during the surgery he HAD to stay awake if not there would be a blood clot and he can easily go into a coma. He was in the ICU for a few days but thank God he survived and pulled through all the suffering and pain. So praise God for tht!

scheme/ tactic : Hurt without warning.

Thank God he ran. if not they would've probably chopped him into pieces.

Story 2:

This guy who was in the hospital with my friend's brother was a victim of an acid splasher or whatever they should be called. His wife told his mum that her husband was somewhere near a bus stop when this guy approached him and asked if he knew where the bus stop was. The husband looked left and pointed in that direction,showing the guy where the bus stop was. The minute he turned right to look at that guy, SPLASH~! and that was the last time he had sight of anything.

How heartless can people get these days?!
This definitely cautioned me to continue being the helpful person i am.
Its a different story with friends and people that i know but to strangers? as of this moment, i am definitely an unhelpful pedestrian/stranger.
I dare not risk my safety. I am usually the helpful cheerful kind who'd be more than willing to help out tourists and lost ppl and all but after all that has happened and still is happening? i guess that person has to be hidden in a closet for a while.

Story 3:

My friend was at this bus stop, after watching a movie. He was approached by this guy who acted like a long lost friend.. going all "heyy brooo! wassup! long time no seeeeeeeee!" with a pat on the shoulder. My friend thought he was either lost wanting to get directions or he must've confused him with some other guy. suddenly, this guy accused him of being a guy who offended a member of his Gang. My friend was getting ready to run away when this other guy came from behind, even bigger sized than the guy that approached him. They made him follow them to a coffee shop nearby. A coffee shop where no one else was around except for the workers. They bought him drinks and said stuffs like..

"So, u look like a student. i'm pretty sure u own an atm card?"
they also checked out his phone and asked him what was in his bag. My friend, afraid of whatever weapons they may possess was ready to give them anything and everything  as long as his life was not at risk. But they decided not to take anything else from him. They walked to an atm nearby and withdraw all the money that he had in his account. They gave him back his atm card and sent him off to the bus stop, and made sure he went on the bus. They even waved goodbye~ heh. Seriously? oh oh, i forgot to mention how they even paid for his drinks!

Omgossssh. HOW SCARY IS THIS?!
they're the so called 'Good thieves'. Well, that's how my friend labeled them.
unbelievable!

There are many more stories but the main point is that Our country is no longer what it used to be. People around you? They're not as safe as they used to be. I dont blame Malaysians for being so unhelpful at times. Now i've finally understood why my parents were always so paranoid about me being so helpful and why my friends were so paranoid about me asking random strangers for directions, etc.I guess desperate times call for desperate measures.
With all these schemes and tactics going on, i feel soooo insecure. I feel like i cannot trust people so easily anymore. I feel so insecure whenever i am out in public places. It feels as if no one and no where is safe anymore.

We are the next generation to make a change in this country and that is what we should be preparing ourselves to do! Even if u just Pray for our country, that is something.
It is High time the youths of this country started caring more about whats going on around them in this country rather than getting all worked up just because u lost a pc game or because ur manicure is messed up.

We NEED to start PRAYING for THIS country.
And when u pray, pray with Faith and pray without any doubts.
because Prayer without Faith is nothing. If you do not believe in your prayers, what then are you expecting out of your prayer? Our God is able and Our God is a powerful God. Take not for granted your safety and take not for granted the lives of the people around you. Anyone and i mean anyone at all could be a victim of these ruthless people.

As much as i am very much raged about the actions of these people, I most definitely do not wish for them to be banished to Hell and to burn in Hell for eternity. Laugh all you want, but these are the people who we should be praying for. They are the people who needs to be touched by God. They are the people who needs help. So condemn them not, but pray for them as u pray for our country. We do not know why they are doing what they're doing so lets just leave the judging to God. We may hope for them to die and to suffer just like how our friends and the victims have suffered but if you do so, u'll be no different from who they are. Do you wanna be JUST like them or maybe even WORSE than them? I dont think so.

We are humans. Who are we to decide who should live and who should die?

So anyways, in the midst of these dark times, please be careful and please be alert at all times. Try not to go out too late. I used to think that nahh, i'll be ok. I am with people and etc etc. But take not for granted, your safety. Anything can happen to anyone and at anytime. So if it is not necessary, dont go out when its late. I hope these situations would not go on for a long time and i do hope that it will all come to an end soon but till then, Please stay safe and be safe.

I care. Do you?

xoxo.!

My Working experience this Summer.

I apologize for the previous post if my language seemed a tad bit rude.
I was just really upset and disappointed.
But all is well now. I just had to let it all out.
I am better now and I am one day away from my chilling time!
One more day of work and off i head to a new direction with regards to the type of jobs i would be taking up in the near future.

Now that i am more chilled, let me fill you in about my working experience this summer.
This Summer, i have come to many realizations during my working period.
I've met all kinds of people, worked with all kinds of people and encountered many different and new challenges.

But anyways, i've also realized how i have outgrown this promoter/roadshow/event line.
Eversince i was 15, i was always eager to try out as many type of jobs before i had to permanently stick to one. Hwahahaa..idk why but that suddenly reminded me of the scenario where people would like to try out as many gfs and bfs before getting married = permanently stick to just one, person. hahahaha. But pls ah. I dont roll that way! i dont know why people actually feel proud of having SOOOO many relationships.

the higher the number = the better.

EKKKKKK! wrong answer.
it is sooooo unattractive! well, to me at least.

BUT ANYWAYS. let us not go off topic now, shall we? hahaha.
so anywaysss.. i have tried out many many jobs .. and i have sticked to this particular line for a few years now. few reasons. I get weekday jobs. I am So busy on weekends! The pay is much higher than what the retail line can offer me. Double, infact. and the timing is pretty flexible.
So i felt like this particular job really satisfied almost all my requirements. The only set back was the fact that our salary sometimes come pretty late. Other than that, everything was good to go. Until recently. I suddenly found selling really depressing. The amount of rejection you get everyday and yada yada. repeating the exact same line for like a few thousand times each day. It is challenging, that i wont deny. It increases perseverance , it challenges me to do better and to try harder. It instills in me many good qualities. But still, my heart is no longer in selling and i find it pretty pointless.

The money is good as well. But i have finally reached that stage where money is no longer the motivating factor as to why I am working. I have finally reached that point where what i do and what i use my time for, must matter. It must mean something. I want to do something meaningful, something that can help change lives, something that will make a change, for the better, in someone or somewhere.

Of course, i wont deny that money is very much needed for survival and yada yada. So it is and will of course be one of the reasons why i am working but definitely no longer the main reason. Also, i have met alot of negative people recently and it has definitely been a challenge to NOT be influenced by such characters,personalities and attitudes! It is sometimes really difficult when you spend so much time with such people. Deny it all u want and go on saying stuffs like how u are so strong, u know where u stand and all.. but i tell you..

the saying that Birds of a feather flock together is no lie.

I found myself acting like them after working together with them for quite a while. It's just so difficult! the minute i realized i was starting to act like them, the first thing that came to my head was.. "RUNNNNN~! RUNNN AS FAR AS POSSIBLE! "

i didn't want to become like them. Always so negative and complainy. complain complain complain. i dont wanna complain so much! in fact! i am actually trying to improve myself to stop complaining. This has been one of my goals eversince highschool and i am still working on it. =) But of course, not everyone is perfect and sometimes, even the people closest to you would have qualities which u would want to stay away from. But u cannot run everytime u encounter such characters. So i guess it just boils down to adapting to the people around you. It is you who have to be strong and to try very hard not to be influenced but rather to influence, if possible. But its so hard la! ish.. dangerousnya~

But they weren't close friends or anything pun.. so just run la. i dont like. =/
so i'm so glad that i am ending work on friday! yayyyy~! =)) Aihs. Just wish i could slip away for one more holiday before 2nd Year of Law School starts. I want to go somewhere away from the city. somewhere away from the jams and pollution like Sarawak or maybe Redang. But i've spent enough. Time to save up again. I am definitely planning to visit Sarawak though. have been wanting to visit Sarawak for quite a while now. Hope the time will come soon! :)

And oh! work was good today la. was on another roadshow today. One that i am familiar with and one that i have done last year. It was so fun playing games and all with the people at the ramadhan bazaar! and it was so fun giving out free stuffs. hahahaa. SO FUN! i felt so generous and rich. Bagi saja bagi sajaaaaaaaaaaaa~! Plus, i scored myself some free food from the bazaar. When the prizes ran out, alot of the male participants kept asking if they could have me as their prize instead! hahaha. ish ish ish~~~~~~!

everything was good except for the fact that i almost got into a bad accident. A close call.
I was heading towards the toll when i suddenly looked right and saw this silver hyundai car heading straight towards the driver's seat, my seat. First think that came into my mind? WHAT THE HECK IS THIS FELLA DOING DRIVING IN SUCH A DIRECTION?!

* PIN PIN PIN PIN PINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*
he was still speeding straight towards me! head first! but thank God he managed to jam the brakes hard enough to have missed me by an inch! the screeching sound of the tires were so loud till its after effects lasted in my right ear for a good 1 hour. I was in shock after passing the toll and so i stopped at the side to calm down and take in whatever that happened. That noob face of course didn't bother whether or not he hit my car or damaged it in anyway and just drove straight to the furthest possible toll away from me and sped off right after passing the toll. What a gentlemen. Sighs. but im healthy and alive so pls, worry not.

I just thank God that He has always been looking after me and still is.
Today i was reminded once again, how fragile life can be. =)
Make it matter. Make your life, matter.

Thats all for now. =) 1 more day!
then i'm pretty much free-er till classes resume!
few days more till results come out! excited / nervous for me? me too! =)

xoxo.!